as i was leaving, too soon*

nighttime photos are my favourite.

turns out i like jumping in rain puddles.

and burning incense in my bedroom...

aaand i like:

sparkly nailpolish

being friends with victoriasmith

the smell of my new shampoo.

(if youre around me when ive just washed my hair,

i WILL make you smell it.

and you will thank me.

haha #butreally)

 dear telephone wire photos

 i like you very much, too.

more lovely things:

old ladies with long grey hair.

the kind of son-in-law my dad is.

apartment scouting with my dad. #ilovetown

this weekend, get lost in: night time by the xx

and fall in love with the clouds.

xoxo

everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

she said, go*

i had so much i wanted to say. but then you clouded my mind. in the best way. and now missy higgins is singing my thoughts. *okay breathe* tonight: watching the sunset. staring up at the stars. getting lost (and there's no one else i'd rather have been with. it's weird how much i trust you. despite the fact that you say i've been withdrawn with you, ive never felt more vulnerable). and charles, after i highfive you tomorrow night, youll make me tea. and break the awkwardness, please.

in other news of the day: am i jealous?

"i dont know what ive done done, or if i like what ive begun. but something told me to run"

"i dont know who i am, who i am without you. all i know is that i should."

"but you taught me how to trust myself. and so i say to you, this is what i have to do."

"i need to know just how you feel, to comfort you. i need to find the key to let me in. into your heart"

"you were blessed by a different kind of inner-view, it's all magnified."

"she will love you more than i could. -she who dares to stand where i stood"

"youre my mystery, my mystery one"

"but if i listen to the dark, youll embrace me like a star; envelop me"

"i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you, all i know is that i should"

"if things get real for me down here, promise to take me to before you went away"

"my silence solidifies, til that hollow void erases you, so i can't feel at all"

"this world youre in now, it doesnt have to be alone. i'll get there somehow. cause i know i know i know when even springtime feels cold. but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see. so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. and in our honesty, together we will rise, out of our night minds and into the light at the end of their fight"

enchantedhappy xoxo

happybirthday sarahmurphy*

it's eight twenty. lisa is sleeping in my bed. the dogs next door are barking. i'm busy stalking Lord_Voldemort7's tweets.bc theyre hilarious and brilliant. i just finished my tea. aaaand. ohmygosh its eight twenty.

Things i don't understand: What we did before we got a dishwasher. WHAT is up with Nu Metro making me BUY 3D glasses?! Could you not have told me this before I left my 8 other pairs at home. And we allll know your 'glasses aren't included in ticket price' line is a FAKESTORY. No need to lie. How sethcohen is so dang amazing. [WHY.-no. HOW you felt you had to do this at seven am, and then leave. with me feeling like this. it's just rude and you should be ashamed. i am sorry though. truly and completely. tell me how to make this right] Aaaand. I am fully going to be lame and agree with the hype: stepup3D. INSANELY COOL. Also (and more importantly) I'm in love with Moose. More than I was in the "tastes like candycanes at christmaaas" days. WAY more. So backoff. Mine. ("mine mine mine" *just for you chaitea*)

In other news of the day. Allll of you. Yes, even you. Should click on this link now. And follow my friend's blog. Bc apprently she's getting marked on the amount of followers she has. For school. Kay GO. I'm off to watch The OC, and hope Seth can make me feel better... And wonder (but not care) if the "Californiaaaa" will wake Lisa up..

enchantedhappy xoxo

takes my hearts place*

remember these? ahh good times.. stjoseph's memories. currently reading: we wish to inform you that tomorrow will be killed with our families: stories from rwanda by philipgourevitch. and 70 great christians: the story of the christian church by geoffreyhanks. still can't finish perfectmatch by jodipicoult. it's just... so heartbreaking, reading the kid's thoughts. he shouldn't be feeling like that. ever. let alone while he's so young. he's five, for goodness sake. five. oh gosh, i don't think i'll ever finish it..

jessicasmith, just read your 'thankyou elc' post..“once family, always family.” awww. and ohmygoodness i just discovered goodreads. it's he coolest thing! have u got it, miss adachi? i think youd love it! ive been on it for like.. seven hours straight, im so addicted!!! my mom is laughing at me for getting so excited at every new option, "andrea, get a real friend". #gottalovefamily (yes i am bringing twitter into every moment, bc i can) rightnow im: updating my 43things. currently reading: britt's romantic post aaand her amazing list of why it's great to be single. this whole morning i thought it was nextweek monday, and was kinda freaking out. haha, turns out it's only august23, calm down everyone. everything is suddenly so soon* lastnight escalated so quickly. and then i found an sms from you on may tenth. is it lame that that's the only thing that calmed me down? probably. but youre still in my life, and youre still the one i want to run to. so i guess that's a good sign.

so much happened this weekend. it seems all my adventures happen with especially with lisafortuin these days, haha we are so great.  but i guess ill blog about my thoughts and experiences some other time. i just bought cranberryjuice and a cranberryalmond bar. and a magazine i played a part in creating. tonight i will go enjoy those :) and that yummy green tea with jasmine mmmm. i don't feel like thinking or analysing. i just want to: complete the essay i began this morning. paint my nails barbie pink. search for more colleges in hawaii. but im mostly just smiling to myself about the INCREDIBLE people i have in my life. thankyou, amazing friends. you make me so happy, make my heart feel complete. sweet dreams to you all*

enchantedhappy xoxo

contemplating you*

i came across these. they made me think of you.technically, im having tea. but i still cant get over how epic it is that you have a megaphone. and how priceless it would be to witness you telling your mom a story when she's upstairs. 

 we don't make sense. but you mean the world to me. so, like everything else. just accept.

we all say it now. especially the boys. silly influencial americans, they think they can just come here and change our vocabulary :) gosh.

today's number: 43. fragrance: white musk by thebodyshop. favourite meal: (tempted to say the eighth slice of pb toast..) tasty vegetarian-friendly wraps by daddy. favourite moment: ky. song: american girl by taylorswift. someone. tell me where my favourite places are. such a simple question. and yet.. it's proven so difficult. *freaking out* tomorrow is: make-britt-study-while-you-watch-skins-on-her-wonderful-mac day. oh, and soupkitchen-with-ali day. #ilovethegaplife. (twitter is life. only lisafortuin will get this.)

enchantedhappy xoxo

and it seems to me*

this weekend i learnt a lot. about myself. and the person i am around different people. about canalwalk. and islam. lastnight: we found a new parkingplace. and finally went into legends. then the night took an interesting turn. which began with kyle's attempt at filtering wine through his extreme coffee machine. and ended with his probable decision never to invite lisafortuin and i over again. atleast not until he covers his apartment in plastic. *awkward* tonight we went to this INSANE show at C's school. (ilovetygerbergcampus) jessicasmith, you would have LOVED it! it was glee X100 000. gonna try get the dvd. aaaand. i had a lightbulb moment. and wrote a list. and happened to make sense of my life. reading vicki's blog made my head start spinning allll over again. argh, i have so much in my head. but. im falling asleep rightnow. which is good. so im embracing it :) until next time....

enchantedhaapy xoxo

haven't thought of yours*

yesterday. i was plagued by the word 'SALE'. it's everywhere!!! i haven't been in a mall, for so long. well. ya. bc i just used to want everything and then id build an entire imaginary wardrobe (WARDROBE) in my head, and it just wasn't getting healthy. also, i was just too busy to even windowshop. and (as victoria constantly reminds me) i don't really venture out in public these days. anywaaaay. yesterday. alllll that changed. it got dangerous. my feet really hurt. but it was totally worth it. there was a wonderful dress at hiltonweiner. but now i have people in my kitchen (three of the only people who actually read this. HI GUYS) so i better go. ahhh i found shoes that make me feel like valentines day! i might have to buy them today. love love.

enchantedhappy xoxo

and you wont tell me*

[image via herecomesthesun]

my secrets pierce your soul

the bloodred you see in my darkness

is the sweet dream of her world

'lock my heart up and throw away the key'

you told the past

but your eyes scream the truth

in a language my heart wont speak.

enchantedhappy xoxo

thirtyfour minutes*

[image via blackorchid]

rightnow: im listening to theboy by rarariot. (thankyou nylon) aaaaand the only source of joy today (besides snoekie's letter. and mark. and a lovely fire. and an actual sms from victoria. and love from demi. and moments with lisafortuin that only the two of us will ever truly understand. and ephesians 4-5. *OKAY FINE il admit it. today turned out good*) is the possibility of missadachi coming here. ahhh this song makes me miss live music on hot summer evenings. tangerine smoothies. spontaneous roadtrips. cotton dresses in the cool midnight breeze. city lights on the way back home.. and the summer we wore matching bikinis. before all this mess.

enchantedhappy xoxo

and you put it through...sunny side up*

yesterday was jo's nineteenth. and the final. a wonderful day. a very long night*

this morning: i woke up early and waited outside the office for half an hour. was oatmeal monday. tamlin showed us her homemade muesli. i listened to demi lovato. dashboard confessional. and the camprock soundtrack.

[the night we lost the dvd remote and couldnt watch glee has sparked a reunion with my box sets of The OC]

i've learnt how dangerous a lack of sleep can be. exhibit a: the opsmile office today. but really. gosh. and yes i did just awwww and almost cry at victoria's last post. yay south africa*

(wow im very dramatic today. first blogslapping, now this.)

i wish i had time to watch cute happy movies.

(bc i don't go to fakeschool. *ahem ahem* yes i am jealous)

also, thank you jessicasmith and cousin for killing this vibe. and thanks for the romantic office pop-in info-session boyfriend-analyse profile-stalking wine-overseas-discussion.

dear jono, apparently one night wasn't enough. but smoothies and icecream and endless amounts of caramel will make it better :)

ah 500 days of summer. miss adachi, enjoy the rest of yours. without fb :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

stay a while*

 

completely conincidental yet extremely priceless moment. moonstruck forever* and wow blackbelt. thankyou. i don't even have a worthy response. you are almost as amazing as me. haha! -not a joke. 

dear girl-in-this-picture. you're cute. but you should know.. i'm cooler than you. mostly bc: i have an electric blanket under my sheet. i have pink fairylights. i'm drinking the most delicious rooibostea outv a pretty porcelain teacup. i am not wearing pearls on my wrist, but thirteen sillybands -dinosaurs and sealife, to be exact. i'm reading the newnew teenvogue. and victoria's [amazing] new blog.  

[if you weren't my person. i'd wish for one as great as you. -actually, id probably be sitting in a corner being emo. with no one to just accept lol. five years is a long time, kid. let's not test the theory]

 tomorrow used to be called friday. but it became 'fruity friday'. and now it's known as 'fancy fruity friday'. hoping for suiting up at work tomorrow :) for scarlett's wedges and tamlin's "devil wears prada shoes". and we all love the green floral shirt, scar! -just sayin. and happy birthday ashley tisdale. [can't wait for my holliemail from dublin to arrive]

songs of tonight: never leave you by tinchystryder. the girl can't help it by lmfao. my generation by thewho. thought she knew by thesingletrack. don't steal our sun by thrills.

enchantedhappy xoxo

oh what a life*

"May your tears come from laughing

You find friends worth having

With every year passing

They mean more than gold"

"May you win but stay humble

Smile more than grumble

And know when you stumble

You're never alone"

"Never alone

Never alone

I'll be in every beat of your heart

When you face the unknown"

B, tell your mom! -vicki listens to lady antebellum*


enchantedhappy xoxo

will carry you*

dear vicki. this is him, this is electricbreezeboy. i know i said i wanted a romantic french letter, but i changed my mind. just this french boy will do. please and thank you*

enchantedhappy xoxo