love and courage*

life should be simple.

yes or no. happy or sad. light and darkness.

i shouldnt be this hesistant.

i shouldnt think this much

before i run to you.

am i scared?

but you are mine

and i am yours.

i tried not to look into your eyes today

bc you can always tell.

so i just lay there

listening to you breathe

hoping you wouldnt ask me

hoping you wouldnt see.

callenjefferson's photographs never fail to amaze me. i especially love her beach photos.  

i thought i was ready for summer, but with this beautiful rain today... im having second thoughts. #thankyouglobalwarming

xoxo

everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

searching for alfonzo..*

today i walked into danna's office and she screamed 'tiny floral day' in her cute american accent. and then we burst our laughing. apparently my dress reminds her off a ralph lauren trend. we decided it would be perfect with the ultimate leather jacket. which im still hunting for. she found hers, but since it was lined with cashmere and keira knightley owned one, it's a lil bit expensive. we also decided that she will date mysterious wealthy forty-ish guy. bc he is lovely.

during this last week things have got to freaky-extreme-crime-drama movie level. the kind i hoped never happened in real life. in my road. literally all the houses around ours. and having moved into the apartment away from the house alone, and being very familiar with criminal movies.. im kinda freaking out. okay, im REALLY freaking out. but it's raining now so that's exciting :) also exciting is the wonderful-but-heartbreaking conversations i got to have with two of the greatest friends i've ever had. who i miss terribly.

off to go watch

the Bayern Munich game. with stefan and my daddy. somewhere where the vibe will be great. i'll drink white hotchocolate. and wish i was in san francisco.

enchantedhappy xoxo

now is a phase*

dear lady. although i am quite enjoying your blazer, i find your outfit quite plain. in an only-almost classic way. the ordinary is having a calming effect on me, though. which i need. it may be the blue-ness. perhaps i will buy you some bold accessories online. with stefans credit card. which i am currently in possession of. oooh. until i decide for sure, i will continue to stalk the fifa website while listening to scouting for girls.

no sleep tonight, there'll be ..no sleep tonight. yes, i shall listen to the faders next. haven't spent all night online since.. charles. after a while, it gets a lil less exciting alone lol. there are only so many cool things faran can find to put on nylon's blog in one night. okay let me reply to V before she accuses me of replying super late again. [no this is not a personal attack on you, victoria.] iv been brainstorming with hollie, well, more like at hollie. about the name of my new blog. 'another midnight' seems to be high up there. although it contains none of my favourite words, i quite like it*


enchantedhappy xoxo