everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

superficial lines explain it all*

yesterday i went for a lovely walk through town with danna. we sat in the gardens, came into close contact with squirrels and spoke about.. life. about decisions and applications and boys and fashion (duh) and poetry and inspiration :) it was an enriching day for me. and i found photos which remind me of 'the secret garden' which i loved when i was younger. i wonder if i still would today.. i am currently reading a book called 'stories we could tell'. it's quite cool. today, i wore pearls. and lace. leather. leggings. lipstick. and i thought i had made a decision, but i guess i hadn't. and then things got personal. and now i feel drained. *sigh* yesterday feels forever away.

to end, i quote rumi (thanks danna). if. the start and the finish.

"you are that blessed soul who

belongs to the garden of paradise

is it fair to let yourself

fall apart in a shattered house

you are the bird of happiness

in the magic of existence

what a pity when you let

yourself be chained and caged

but if you can break free

from this dark prison named body

soon you will see

you are the sage and the fountain of life"

enchantedhappy xoxo