everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

and two is better than one..*

i am now officially addicted to journeyman. and dollhouse. i have so much work to do before the end of the week. oh we got our discovery cards! it's got my full name on it though, sigh. has anyone seen my grey jeans? babysitting eli tomorrow, best baby ever yay! and now i'm going to go stand in the rain.

enchantedhappy xoxo

and the stars appear*

sometimes, i believe things are possible bc i desperately want them to be true.

today, one of those things became a possibility. and then it just got so much bigger than i could have imagined. more than that i cannot say at this point.

enchantedhappy xoxo

sing it back to me*

today it was too hot. i dream of wintery days and wake up with a nice warm outfit in mind and then bang, it's hot. gosh, weather! oh i developed a theory that all my clothes would be put to optimum use if i had black ankle boots and charcoal brogues. please and thank you. and i would like for the airport to become the new place to be. like 'let's go for an exciting beverage at vida at the airport. and then we'll go pick out necklaces and bags at accessorize. and supercute la senza underwear. and indulge in expensive magazines and all the pretty books. and pick out beautiful polo luggage we'll probably never actually own' (yes that's exactly what i did today*) and now im listening to 'brand new eyes' over and over. and over. bc my dear brother has lost all of my other cds and forgot where he put mnr ipod. gosh, kids today. flip i fully just ate an entire tub of icecream. not in an emo 'i just broke up with my boyfriend and im heartbroken, all i can do right now is sit on my bed with my best friend' way. in a 'daaang that's GOOD icecream, i'm gonna enjoy the deliciousness of it! and then not realise how far i took that concept' way. omg im gonna be obese someday. oh well* atleast i got to experience the yumminess of life :)

sending off some more packages today, filled with love and magic :) it's so exciting* i love mail. and suuuper long letters, yay! i wonder where in the world the valentines day packages have gone bc they most certainly havent reached alexander and lisaaaa.

i can't believe i cried so much today. i'm really going to miss you, demilicious. you better come home before matty-c gets married. if he ever speaks to you again ;) be good, memi. and you WILL buy me all those magazines, every month til i see you again. i'm actually researching flights right now. denver to LAX; spend some time in cali. and then (woopwoop) LAX to frisco*

anyway, off to eat even more yummy chocolate cake. and to drink even more lemon honey rooibos tea. i shall spend the rest of the evening alternating between 90210 and HIMYM. still haven't started 'dear john' but i guess il start it later this week. i'm not emotionally ready for another complicated relationship and tangled emotions. the last few books iv read have been filled with deceit and attempts at justifying having an affair, and i feel.. contaminated. it's a horrible feeling being deeply entrenched in a world where all this immoral stuff is condoned. so i need some good in my life for a bit :) i shall look for a happier book. lol*

enchantedhappy xoxo

now is a phase*

dear lady. although i am quite enjoying your blazer, i find your outfit quite plain. in an only-almost classic way. the ordinary is having a calming effect on me, though. which i need. it may be the blue-ness. perhaps i will buy you some bold accessories online. with stefans credit card. which i am currently in possession of. oooh. until i decide for sure, i will continue to stalk the fifa website while listening to scouting for girls.

no sleep tonight, there'll be ..no sleep tonight. yes, i shall listen to the faders next. haven't spent all night online since.. charles. after a while, it gets a lil less exciting alone lol. there are only so many cool things faran can find to put on nylon's blog in one night. okay let me reply to V before she accuses me of replying super late again. [no this is not a personal attack on you, victoria.] iv been brainstorming with hollie, well, more like at hollie. about the name of my new blog. 'another midnight' seems to be high up there. although it contains none of my favourite words, i quite like it*


enchantedhappy xoxo

dream about me*

yay the chanel 2.55 .. i just read up on the history of it . wow. coco chanel truly was the most legendary woman.. everyone go see coco avant chanel. wow*

yay a bright, exciting remake :)

a primark version of it .. ooh*

yay urban outfitter.. woopwoop*

i've been dreaming about that neon bag i saw across the shopping centre. it's like these. chanel-inspired. i really really want it. in the yellow and the pink. very much*

ah love xoxo