she's a good girl..*

many things i missed this morning: summers away at the beach with you. perfect birthdays. best friends who can eat as much cake as i can. not having to explain myself, bc you can see it before i even breathe your name. you being here with me.

 

but as the day progressed, so my world improved.

dinner plans with my inspiration. a completely quotable movie. squishy candy. a beautiful day of sunshine. application forms. bonding with my brother. roads lined with greengreen trees. new glee episodes. catchy lovesongs. rubyred nailpolish. driving through the city at night. today was filled with life's little joys*

my heart is smiling, as i drink my delicious hot rooibos tea and tell you i want you to bake me a cake. bc nothing makes me happy like watching the sun sparkle on the sea* that, and having the most incredible friends in the world :)

songs of the night: every song i have by matthewmole. (go.download.them.)

enchantedhappy xoxo

she said, go*

i had so much i wanted to say. but then you clouded my mind. in the best way. and now missy higgins is singing my thoughts. *okay breathe* tonight: watching the sunset. staring up at the stars. getting lost (and there's no one else i'd rather have been with. it's weird how much i trust you. despite the fact that you say i've been withdrawn with you, ive never felt more vulnerable). and charles, after i highfive you tomorrow night, youll make me tea. and break the awkwardness, please.

in other news of the day: am i jealous?

"i dont know what ive done done, or if i like what ive begun. but something told me to run"

"i dont know who i am, who i am without you. all i know is that i should."

"but you taught me how to trust myself. and so i say to you, this is what i have to do."

"i need to know just how you feel, to comfort you. i need to find the key to let me in. into your heart"

"you were blessed by a different kind of inner-view, it's all magnified."

"she will love you more than i could. -she who dares to stand where i stood"

"youre my mystery, my mystery one"

"but if i listen to the dark, youll embrace me like a star; envelop me"

"i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you, all i know is that i should"

"if things get real for me down here, promise to take me to before you went away"

"my silence solidifies, til that hollow void erases you, so i can't feel at all"

"this world youre in now, it doesnt have to be alone. i'll get there somehow. cause i know i know i know when even springtime feels cold. but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see. so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. and in our honesty, together we will rise, out of our night minds and into the light at the end of their fight"

enchantedhappy xoxo

one month til magic*

My Birthday List

A Pretty Journal

A Love Listography Book

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Tins of Caramel

Ice Cream Cone Lamp

Special K with RedBerries

CranberryAppleCinnamon Tea

Mood Nailpolish

The Last Song DVD

Pink LaffyTaffy

SillyBandz

CocaCola FizzPops

The Hannah Montana Movie DVD

Serendipity DVD

That cool stainless steel Waterbottle

SurfJoy. Yes, SurfJoy. A Whole Box.

CranApple Juice

PinkLemonade Snapple

Mixtapes. And by Mixtapes I mean CDs

That Aldo poster with Stam and the Heart

Awesum Tights

Those Sunglasses *cough cough POPPATRUNKS*

A Mug. I like mugs.

A Polaroid Camera

Highwaisted Skirts

Magazines duh

An Orchid

Callen's boots

Birthday Cards in The Mail

Happy Birthday Nailpolish

To be taken on The Perfect Date

AppleCinnamon Muffins

Yummy Body Butter

This Forget Me Knot Ring

Flowers. In vases, all over the house.

I still have no idea what my party will be. And the place I want to watch the sun rise may not be open early enough. But I am really really excited regardless. It will be the best day in the whole wide world. I Love My Birthday*

enchantedhappy xoxo

claim that you missed it*

where do i begin.

regrets and recklessness. the kind i dont understand. the kind that needed to happen. the kind that made me realise your love is greater than i couldve imagined.

friendships i feel undeserving of.

friendships i finally see are over, bc that's how you need it to be. (thanks for letting me know youll always pick your girlfriend)

and delicious vanillachai, like only you can make it.

(all i want to wear this summer)

spent today: in my iheartny pjs. wondering if theyll let me go with B in december. aaand. blowing bubbles in the garden. i realised that i never watch them float away. i just like the feeling when i blow and they suddenly appear. funfact: 'on air with ryan seacrest' is the greatest radio show.

current song obsessions: teenagedream. xxxo. all i want for christmas. with me. hey man (now youre really living). rightnow im: stalking colleges. -here and there. [today's favourites: macalester and berea.] possibly freaking out over nothing. about to watch serendipity. then nottinghill for the first time. with bowls of blackcurrent jelly. and rooibos tea. lots of rooibos tea...

enchantedhappy xoxo

takes my hearts place*

remember these? ahh good times.. stjoseph's memories. currently reading: we wish to inform you that tomorrow will be killed with our families: stories from rwanda by philipgourevitch. and 70 great christians: the story of the christian church by geoffreyhanks. still can't finish perfectmatch by jodipicoult. it's just... so heartbreaking, reading the kid's thoughts. he shouldn't be feeling like that. ever. let alone while he's so young. he's five, for goodness sake. five. oh gosh, i don't think i'll ever finish it..

jessicasmith, just read your 'thankyou elc' post..“once family, always family.” awww. and ohmygoodness i just discovered goodreads. it's he coolest thing! have u got it, miss adachi? i think youd love it! ive been on it for like.. seven hours straight, im so addicted!!! my mom is laughing at me for getting so excited at every new option, "andrea, get a real friend". #gottalovefamily (yes i am bringing twitter into every moment, bc i can) rightnow im: updating my 43things. currently reading: britt's romantic post aaand her amazing list of why it's great to be single. this whole morning i thought it was nextweek monday, and was kinda freaking out. haha, turns out it's only august23, calm down everyone. everything is suddenly so soon* lastnight escalated so quickly. and then i found an sms from you on may tenth. is it lame that that's the only thing that calmed me down? probably. but youre still in my life, and youre still the one i want to run to. so i guess that's a good sign.

so much happened this weekend. it seems all my adventures happen with especially with lisafortuin these days, haha we are so great.  but i guess ill blog about my thoughts and experiences some other time. i just bought cranberryjuice and a cranberryalmond bar. and a magazine i played a part in creating. tonight i will go enjoy those :) and that yummy green tea with jasmine mmmm. i don't feel like thinking or analysing. i just want to: complete the essay i began this morning. paint my nails barbie pink. search for more colleges in hawaii. but im mostly just smiling to myself about the INCREDIBLE people i have in my life. thankyou, amazing friends. you make me so happy, make my heart feel complete. sweet dreams to you all*

enchantedhappy xoxo

i'm not, i'll miss you*

[image via but, honestly]

(you see me and you know. you read beyond the lines i don't realise ive drawn. you know me and it scares me. but youre the one i want to run to. so why do you pretend to miss the one thing im not hiding. am i supposed to go along with it? i don't understand.)

enchantedhappy xoxo

but what does one wear to a madhatter's teaparty..?*

(kinda obsessed with bows this week. and blonde hair. lol)   

(cute blazer + highwaistedskirt + pink + socks and sandals the only way i approve = the kinda math i can actually do)

(yay lil tshirts with heart-shaped buttons. and yay satin)

mmmm. i might have to go to 15 on orange to get some at cinnamon.

(images via sequinmagazine)

im still stuck on which colour to paint my nails...

enchantedhappy xoxo

damaged truth..*

rooibos. no milk, no sugar. one hundred oranges. beautiful poetry. piano playing in the background. heavy rain outside. inner peace that makes you smile. this is life*

enchantedhappy xoxo

i would indeed like a dumpling*

 

ali ali ali! i am always jealous of your insane one-of-a-kind clothing items. and how fast your hair grows. and the amazing adventure you got to go on, wow. let's hang out? and hello, hook me up with some more of that jasmine tea* i miss hermanus. in other news of the day: i am not talking about my woopwoop-ing. (yes, jono. i mean YOU) aaaand. eclipse premiere with harsha tomorrow. we have an extra ticket, (bc Britt's a loser and rejected our months-ago plan for a week away with PaigeTheSunblocklessSmoker -i love you,paige- in Plett) anyone wana come? jessicasmith it's sooo soon*

enchantedhappy xoxo

if we found eachother first*

"Ring the bells that can still ring. Forget your perfect offering. There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in."-Leonard Cohen

"I slept and dreamt that life was joy. I awoke and saw that life was service. I acted and behold, service was joy."-Rabindranath Tagore

"They say there is a window from one heart to another. How can there be a window where no wall remains?"- Rumi

[images via blackorchid]

tumblr stalking. fascinated by newspaperblackout. frightened by the truth in the posts on frailbeauty. my ipod is playing through 'w'. songs on repeat: where would we be now by goodcharlotte. white hot magic by thepolyamorousaffair. white houses by vanessacarlton. white lies by paolonutini. turns out strong ceylontea is good, both hot and cold.

enchantedhappy xoxo

to inspire my dreaming*

i have a good... four hours.. before blackbelt arrives and rings the doorbell which i must answer. tomorrow is the germany game, must be awake.. bedtime is soon*

fun fact of the day: i need like a hundred fillings. shocking! and now (bc of lisa's freak out reaction) frightening. geeez. [no klohe, not gees. shame cousin..]

it still amazes me how effortlessly cool french bloggers and their friends are. i heart blackorchid. [and i'm thinking about investing in an orchid...]

"I loved you

because you see beauty

in the things that are broken

tattered

frayed around the edges

they make you wake

on rays of kissing sun

to your whale heart

all ready to swallow all the sadness

spouting out gold and honey so sweet

and if you get cut

you bleed your flood of glitter

and move along

because

even if you get bruised and broken

you still have room in that whale soul

to creep around

the caves and

sea mountains

and find just a speck

of hope"

-starflowerandindigo

don't you ever forget that.

currently loving: wildfox ads. strong black coffee. nude nailpolish. the return of my mug..well, the reincarnation.. (lisafortuin, stop laughing.we have a great bond, my mug and i). the fact that i can have an actual song as my ringtone. lisa adachi's haircut (it's still longer than mine haha, but dang 29 inches wow). the idea of a new stash of cool tights. adrianna's songs in the new 90210 episodes. the world cup. -highlight of tonight's game? the first closeup of beckham :)

jokes, it was a hectic game. fast-paced. with actual fouls for a change. and gosh, all the goal attempts are not good for my heart. but yes, that beckham moment.. very much appreciated*

oh gosh, it's almost five! -okay goodnight all (i'm pretty sure that's a line from a cold medicine ad...)

enchantedhappy xoxo