and i will make you sound like..*

"well, now i don't have a chance with any of the girls in this room.."

oh, my boy..

if only you knew

if only you tried

if only she had told me

that you looked at me like that

my restless heart would

stop for a second

and then beat for you always.

if only her first reaction was different

if only she didn't catch your eye

youd see through her laugh, her dance

and hate me for not showing you

the truth before it broke you

if only i could be

embracing fall with missadachi

with the boy who chose his girlfriend over our friendship

rushing with jessicasmith

exploring restaurants in town

listening to this wonderful cd

-without wanting to share it all with you

if only you saw the way your eyes shine

the way your heart glows

and my world reflects it all back to you

"pick me

choose me

love me"

for now i will attempt to sleep

and not dream of ending friendships. again.

tomorrow is one of lastminutes. birthdays. and a night with sarahjane <3

enchantedhappy xoxo

i see through it now*

the piano whispers

her deepest truest wish

floating her hopes through the air i breathe

gently falling upon my tiny bruised heart

are the secrets she

dares to set alight

[images via sequinmagazine/herecomesthesun/weliveyoung]

seriously considering just not going to bed. i have to be awake again in less than three hours. my electricblanket (oh, how i love my electricblanket) is all warm and waiting for me, though. it's just.. so lovely here. blogging. listening to taylorswift. sending colourful emails filled with my every thought. loving: the 'a wedding in the woods' shoot. the idea of being inlove is something ive always believed in. i believe that perfect moments happen. i believe there's one person meant to make your heart sparkle. and i believe that someday, when our hearts are complete enough on their own, he and i will be madly inlove. and we will venture out into the world. being us. creating what will be ours. together. and i believe that love, true love, lasts forever.

enchantedhappy xoxo

you don't know him*

(it's not fair. it's ruining my days. and making me miss your heartbeat. even though i know i'm not allowed. even though i was sure everything was going perfectly. for us both. it's not about before. it's not about why. i just really need to sleep. and to trust. i need to be able to be, even when i don't understand. and not to feel like i need to prove my honesty or sincerity.
or my love.)
currently stalking: domesticdaddy. french socialites. enrico coveri. (-youll love it, charles. go stalk!) ALSO. i just reblogged a post from iwrotethisforyou. it's long. but hectic. questioning mediafreedom in SA.

enchantedhappy xoxo

no farther than dream's antechamber*

"If you want to be happy, be."

[i miss the sunshine]

"I've been, losing lots of keys lately- I don't, know what that means but.. maybe I'd be better off with things that can't be locked at all"
[day one of miss adachi's no-fb adventure]
i get frustrated when im listening to music that doesn't suit my mood. it happened today. but then i found an old preppy playlist and everything fell into place :)

happy birthday scarlett*

may the year be filled with happiness and egg-free carrot cake (and mysterious icing). with faster internet and friendly computers. yay coming to work on your birthday! yay cabbageflowers and balloons and office-teaparties :)

observation of the day: the beauty he finds in her falling asleep in his arms. her safety. her breathing. the blur in between. his heart chose for him*

today i learnt five new words: vacillating. quixotic. inculcate. postulate. assuage.

go look them up. the world is a fascinating place when you read philosophical books,[thanks jessicasmith] own a pocket dictionary and subscribe to dictionary.com's word of the day.

this evening is the american's last. *heartbreaking news*

enchantedhappy xoxo

if you run it by her*

been creepin all over cute kitten photos.. my daddy says yes yay :) i'm going to name her (yeah she'll be a girl) cinnamon. kinda liking how themissionblog is turning out, getting sooo excited for antananarivo! life change of the day: separating tins from the trash when we put it out. the homeless people get 80c per kg from it, which is considerably more than the 15c for most other items. so.. making it easier for them, less scratching through the bin for things they can use. yup*

enchantedhappy xoxo

to inspire my dreaming*

i have a good... four hours.. before blackbelt arrives and rings the doorbell which i must answer. tomorrow is the germany game, must be awake.. bedtime is soon*

fun fact of the day: i need like a hundred fillings. shocking! and now (bc of lisa's freak out reaction) frightening. geeez. [no klohe, not gees. shame cousin..]

it still amazes me how effortlessly cool french bloggers and their friends are. i heart blackorchid. [and i'm thinking about investing in an orchid...]

"I loved you

because you see beauty

in the things that are broken

tattered

frayed around the edges

they make you wake

on rays of kissing sun

to your whale heart

all ready to swallow all the sadness

spouting out gold and honey so sweet

and if you get cut

you bleed your flood of glitter

and move along

because

even if you get bruised and broken

you still have room in that whale soul

to creep around

the caves and

sea mountains

and find just a speck

of hope"

-starflowerandindigo

don't you ever forget that.

currently loving: wildfox ads. strong black coffee. nude nailpolish. the return of my mug..well, the reincarnation.. (lisafortuin, stop laughing.we have a great bond, my mug and i). the fact that i can have an actual song as my ringtone. lisa adachi's haircut (it's still longer than mine haha, but dang 29 inches wow). the idea of a new stash of cool tights. adrianna's songs in the new 90210 episodes. the world cup. -highlight of tonight's game? the first closeup of beckham :)

jokes, it was a hectic game. fast-paced. with actual fouls for a change. and gosh, all the goal attempts are not good for my heart. but yes, that beckham moment.. very much appreciated*

oh gosh, it's almost five! -okay goodnight all (i'm pretty sure that's a line from a cold medicine ad...)

enchantedhappy xoxo

the way i do..*

[photos taken: from theinternet. at spier. in hermanus]

my mom's laptop won't go onto twitter.-withdrawl symptoms are getting hectic. it just started raining hard again :) aaand tomorrow i'm off. aka i shall be sleeping late. OHmygoodness vd is getting so exciting [im suuuper behind, just chill.] i am LOVING damon right now. this evening i finally gave in to the soup hysteria. kinda worth it..

current obsessions: stroopwafels. kirsten dunst movies. almond oil treatments. rooibos with *gasp* milk. basil pesto. my electric blanket.

"It was one of his favourite things in the world -to see her before she saw him."

enchantedhappy xoxo

to share another cup of tea with you*

currently obsessed with indigo. ankle boots. strong coffee. orchids. and 'make you feel my love'.

this. is what i feel like doing right now. it would be perfect :)

i got to chat to andreas this evening :) yay finally! i have missed him. yay and he's home for a week on saturday* this evening we went to the waterfront. i picked out the most gorgeous underwear in the whole wide world. and i listened to my new obssesion over and over. and i had a strange encounter with two men. one sincere, one stupid. i also [ohmygosh] found.. oh let's just say, i touched it and i knew. even my dad sighed a sigh of appreciation. i looked in the mirror and .. i've never experienced it before. it must be love. i honestly feel like i was born for that moment. destiny reigned down upon me. it's.. wow.

i was planning outfits all around the store. ahhh <3

tomorrow, the weekend begins. a whirlwind of bonding it shall be. yet i shan't be receiving smses from victoria. which saddens my heart.

"...to make you feel my love."

enchantedhappy xoxo

i thought of you*

i was looking for pretty things and i came across this.. and hmm it is indeed quite fitting. and then D saw it and made inappropriate comments about us. haha. but yes, i found this and i thought of you, A :)

and then i began searching for beautiful images tagged with 'sleep' and there were some incredibly lovely ones. but i will share them with u some other day. tonight i must tell u something. i wasn't going to tell you for a while, but when i told L why not, she disproved my theory. so i guess you'll find out soon.

enchantedhappy forever xoxo