everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

and i will make you sound like..*

"well, now i don't have a chance with any of the girls in this room.."

oh, my boy..

if only you knew

if only you tried

if only she had told me

that you looked at me like that

my restless heart would

stop for a second

and then beat for you always.

if only her first reaction was different

if only she didn't catch your eye

youd see through her laugh, her dance

and hate me for not showing you

the truth before it broke you

if only i could be

embracing fall with missadachi

with the boy who chose his girlfriend over our friendship

rushing with jessicasmith

exploring restaurants in town

listening to this wonderful cd

-without wanting to share it all with you

if only you saw the way your eyes shine

the way your heart glows

and my world reflects it all back to you

"pick me

choose me

love me"

for now i will attempt to sleep

and not dream of ending friendships. again.

tomorrow is one of lastminutes. birthdays. and a night with sarahjane <3

enchantedhappy xoxo

"can u hear me now? .. SEVEN days.."*

it's weekend. and for the first time in weeks, i noticed. today is: mission shopping. skypedate with missadachi. james' farewell. mont for C and J's birthdays. pondering friendships. a conversation with him. hoping i see more girls with flowers on their dresses and flowers in their hair. aaaand jessicasmith is rushing this weekend! #yaycollegelife

enchantedhappy xoxo

i cant resist the day*

today, the rain was beautiful. i received magical emails. miss adachi inspired my heart. as she tends to do. i baked. (yes, it was from a 'just add oil/water/eggs' pack. but it was delicious. and it looked edible, which is an accomplishment for me. and candywandy was proud of me, so be nice) and researched more colleges id like to attend.

[images via formeforyou]

i wrote happiness. had philosphical discussions. and tb drove me home. we listened to an insane remix of signs. "aaaat your funeral i was sooo upsettt" i am falling inlove with post-bartbass'-death chuck. again. bc he's just so much hotter. oh, i watched the heartbreaking season three finale of greek. and leigh posted a spoiler about chuck.

happy first-day-of-college, jessicasmith*

enchantedhappy xoxo

electric heartbeat moment*

[image via blackorchid]

"i think he can see through everything but my heart"

[images via buthonestly]

missadachi is back yay :) while she did her thirty days without fb ive been trying to do thirty days of trusting. thirty days of my first thought not being 'they could hurt me' or 'it's not a big deal if all they know is the person i let them see'. and it's been surprisingly liberating. sufficiently terrifying, but wonderful none the less. taylorswift's description of herself on her myspace page makes me love her even more. yes, i am on her myspace page right now. stalking: her blog. listening to: her new single, mine. and wishing: we were actually friends. haha. okay i better get to bed. to dream of: sparkly things. christmas time. sunset picnics. that night on the beach when you let me lean in and rest my head on your chest. indulging in the beauty of the moment. and never looking back. "you are the best thing that's ever been mine."

enchantedhappy xoxo

thirtyfour minutes*

[image via blackorchid]

rightnow: im listening to theboy by rarariot. (thankyou nylon) aaaaand the only source of joy today (besides snoekie's letter. and mark. and a lovely fire. and an actual sms from victoria. and love from demi. and moments with lisafortuin that only the two of us will ever truly understand. and ephesians 4-5. *OKAY FINE il admit it. today turned out good*) is the possibility of missadachi coming here. ahhh this song makes me miss live music on hot summer evenings. tangerine smoothies. spontaneous roadtrips. cotton dresses in the cool midnight breeze. city lights on the way back home.. and the summer we wore matching bikinis. before all this mess.

enchantedhappy xoxo

worth trying to be*

just wrote five heartfelt goodbye letters.

now onto the faraway (and notsofaraway) friends...

(wishing i could be there with you, miss adachi and jessicasmith. send my love to alexander and thekrew. awww i miss thekrew. late nights, early mornings, vending machine food *tear* youre going to have an amaaaazing time. -and jessica simpson, hello!- i miss you both so much. take thousands of photos)

[images via sixthandmain and jacqleenbleu]

enchantedhappy xoxo

steppin out in more than decent*

"I love to read. There's something about words that just fascinates me. 26 letters. We all know them. We all use them. We all use the same letters to form words and sentences- stories, novels and works. It amazes me how with something we are all given- someone can create the extraordinary. The way words are perfectly formed into a delicate song or ballad of adventure, romance, trial, desire, goals, trials, and decisions to makeup a whole other world that I can escape to.. Picking up a book and within those two or three hundred pages, there is an entire life- a world and an adventure of someone else that I get to be an intimate part of. I just love it."

-howtosavealifeguard

stalking celebs. for work. sterling knight (aka chad in sonnywithachance. or alex from 17again.) has some legit names in his family. his sister is samantha scarlett. his brother: spencer shuga. his mom is georgia girl. and his rap middle name? sandmann. "I, umm, it's pretty bad.. I'm not kidding… I will show you my ID…"

stalking ilostmy(in)sanity. and dosomething. still craving orangejuice. and jellytots. super excited to see inception. all the emails im sending out today are the colour of crushed berries. ive done everything on today's list. except that one file. i hate plastic sleeves. danna went out to get salad, and came back with the perfect romper and belt. you know, chad it would be lovely if i wore a pretty dress and you suited up on.. oh, i don't know.. september twenty-third? just sayin.

enchantedhappy xoxo

no farther than dream's antechamber*

"If you want to be happy, be."

[i miss the sunshine]

"I've been, losing lots of keys lately- I don't, know what that means but.. maybe I'd be better off with things that can't be locked at all"
[day one of miss adachi's no-fb adventure]
i get frustrated when im listening to music that doesn't suit my mood. it happened today. but then i found an old preppy playlist and everything fell into place :)

happy birthday scarlett*

may the year be filled with happiness and egg-free carrot cake (and mysterious icing). with faster internet and friendly computers. yay coming to work on your birthday! yay cabbageflowers and balloons and office-teaparties :)

observation of the day: the beauty he finds in her falling asleep in his arms. her safety. her breathing. the blur in between. his heart chose for him*

today i learnt five new words: vacillating. quixotic. inculcate. postulate. assuage.

go look them up. the world is a fascinating place when you read philosophical books,[thanks jessicasmith] own a pocket dictionary and subscribe to dictionary.com's word of the day.

this evening is the american's last. *heartbreaking news*

enchantedhappy xoxo

and you put it through...sunny side up*

yesterday was jo's nineteenth. and the final. a wonderful day. a very long night*

this morning: i woke up early and waited outside the office for half an hour. was oatmeal monday. tamlin showed us her homemade muesli. i listened to demi lovato. dashboard confessional. and the camprock soundtrack.

[the night we lost the dvd remote and couldnt watch glee has sparked a reunion with my box sets of The OC]

i've learnt how dangerous a lack of sleep can be. exhibit a: the opsmile office today. but really. gosh. and yes i did just awwww and almost cry at victoria's last post. yay south africa*

(wow im very dramatic today. first blogslapping, now this.)

i wish i had time to watch cute happy movies.

(bc i don't go to fakeschool. *ahem ahem* yes i am jealous)

also, thank you jessicasmith and cousin for killing this vibe. and thanks for the romantic office pop-in info-session boyfriend-analyse profile-stalking wine-overseas-discussion.

dear jono, apparently one night wasn't enough. but smoothies and icecream and endless amounts of caramel will make it better :)

ah 500 days of summer. miss adachi, enjoy the rest of yours. without fb :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

"it does not need saving. we do. from ourselves"..*

today, i had a lovely phonecall with B. [send me the link, britt!!!] and missadachi is off to the governer'shonoracademy. superexciting! i have listened to thejonasbrothers and highschoolmusical soundtracks all day. my daddy just made a delicious smoothie for me, while i read up about severn suzuki. who spoke at the UN earth summit when she was twelve.

"Coming here today, I have no hidden agenda. I am fighting for my future. Losing my future is not like losing an election or a few points on the stock market. I am here to speak for all generations to come." .."Do not forget why you’re attending these conferences, who you’re doing this for .. we are your own children. You are deciding what kind of world we will grow up in. Parents should be able to comfort their children by saying 'everything's going to be alright', 'we’re doing the best we can' and 'it’s not the end of the world'. But I don’t think you can say that to us anymore. Are we even on your list of priorities? My father always says “You are what you do, not what you say.” Well, what you do makes me cry at night. You grown ups say you love us. I challenge you, please make your actions reflect your words. "

 

"All this is happening before our eyes and yet we act as if we have all the time we want and all the solutions. I’m only a child and I don’t have all the solutions, but I want you to realise, neither do you!

1. You don’t know how to fix the holes in our ozone layer.

2. You don’t know how to bring salmon back up a dead stream.

3. You don’t know how to bring back an animal now extinct.

4. And you can’t bring back forests that once grew where there is now desert.

If you don’t know how to fix it, please stop breaking it!

Here, you may be delegates of your governments, business people, organisers, reporters or politicians – but really you are mothers and fathers, brothers and sisters, aunts and uncles – and all of you are somebody’s child.

I’m only a child yet I know we are all part of a family, five billion strong, in fact, 30 million species strong and we all share the same air, water and soil ... borders and governments will never change that.

I’m only a child yet I know we are all in this together and should act as one single world towards one single goal.

In my anger, I am not blind, and in my fear, I am not afraid to tell the world how I feel."

it's so legit. flip! i now i shall return to stalking the un website. and then watch the game. yay life*

enchantedhappy xoxo

where my heart lies..*

words cannot describe the excitement i'm experiencing right now. wow*

enchantedhappy xoxo

i feel so far from where i've been...*

[the most sunnyhappy outfit]

"The summer's all in bloom

The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone

But I hold on to secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head

I come undone at the things he said"

"It's alright and I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades"
"And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep"

i want these glasses. and for it to be sunny enough to wear them. i don't feel like going to the fanpark tomorrow. -is that silly? right now, im looking for missadachi's mission blog post on oscentral. bc mine needs to be done soon. so far i have found her amazing mission memories and advice post. really excited! time to collect toothbrushes :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

be my everything*

[blouberg]

"When I call on Your name You answer

When I fall You are there by my side

You delivered me out of darkness

Now I stand in the hope of new life"

[jenna's birthday]

"By grace I'm free

You've rescued me

All I am is Yours"

[image via lifeinlomo]

"I've found a love greater than life itself

I've found a hope stronger and nothing compares

I once was lost

Now I'm alive in You"

"It is You whom I'll trust at all times"

[images via cheapthrills]

"Love came down and rescued me."

if you read anything today, no this week, let it be miss adachi's story. big news of the day: i wore my daddy's shirt today (belted, with my striped blue blazer, tights and tomy takkies) and both tim and blackbelt approved. shocker. times truly have changed* my daddy left the best comment on my happy fathers day post. tim hughes playing in the kitchen... "it all begins and ends with you" and now, the shops and then to lunch. it really is sunday :) wishes do come true. [no, it's not thesecret. but i did put it out into the universe, just sayin.]

enchantedhappy xoxo