you again*

 You mean that much to me
And it's hard to show
Gets hectic inside of me
When you go
Can I confess these things
To you
Well I don't know
Embedded in my chest
And it
Hurts to hold

I couldn't spill my heart
My eyes gleam looking in from the dark
I walk out in stormy weather
Hold my words, keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip

Night time
Sympathize
I've been working on
White lies
So I'll tell the truth
I'll give it up to you
And when the day come
It will have all been fun
We'll talk about it soon

this song. then: maps by theyeahyeahyeahs..

and the weekend is already perfect.

"wait, they don't love you like i love you"

xoxo

lightbeams.letters.hearts*

You built a castle out of this feeble heart, and left it empty, buried in the wilderness of nevergreen. Want to collapse, and I can't. Wish feverously for warm hands I can't even invent, misfit verses (meant to live in solitude), wounds. Undress me of absence and sleep, sleep, sleep. I'll be made of birds.

-restlesshearts

 [there's too much light, and too much noise in this world. too much] 

two incredible migranes in one day. too much icecream this weekend. two romantic cds from leighleigh. too little sleep this week. too much gratitude in my heart to express in words.

xoxo

"can u hear me now? .. SEVEN days.."*

it's weekend. and for the first time in weeks, i noticed. today is: mission shopping. skypedate with missadachi. james' farewell. mont for C and J's birthdays. pondering friendships. a conversation with him. hoping i see more girls with flowers on their dresses and flowers in their hair. aaaand jessicasmith is rushing this weekend! #yaycollegelife

enchantedhappy xoxo

claim that you missed it*

where do i begin.

regrets and recklessness. the kind i dont understand. the kind that needed to happen. the kind that made me realise your love is greater than i couldve imagined.

friendships i feel undeserving of.

friendships i finally see are over, bc that's how you need it to be. (thanks for letting me know youll always pick your girlfriend)

and delicious vanillachai, like only you can make it.

(all i want to wear this summer)

spent today: in my iheartny pjs. wondering if theyll let me go with B in december. aaand. blowing bubbles in the garden. i realised that i never watch them float away. i just like the feeling when i blow and they suddenly appear. funfact: 'on air with ryan seacrest' is the greatest radio show.

current song obsessions: teenagedream. xxxo. all i want for christmas. with me. hey man (now youre really living). rightnow im: stalking colleges. -here and there. [today's favourites: macalester and berea.] possibly freaking out over nothing. about to watch serendipity. then nottinghill for the first time. with bowls of blackcurrent jelly. and rooibos tea. lots of rooibos tea...

enchantedhappy xoxo

it's like you hit me with lightning..*

"You are a puzzle...complex are every one of your parts and pathways, every thread sewn into place is knotted so intricately that if I was to try and solve you, it might take me a lifetime. For you are evolving....ever expanding and decreasing, your ways forever wavering yet always holding true to WHO YOU ARE.

So who are you? What is it about you that completes the picture of who you are?

And why are so many of us never happy with the artwork that is ourselves?

Something for us to ponder....especially me.

IDENTITY is a crazy concept..."

-buthonestly

(i want their boots. and their dresses. please and thankyou) yay the kling spring2010 lookbook! la la la. today. the sun was bright. the discoball reflected all over the car. the birds were singing. it put us all in a delightful mood. that, and the chocolate springrolls :) aaaand. too many sales. too many sales. i think i found what i shall wear on my birthday* (and a top to wear with my jessicasmith-forever21 princess skirt YAY birthday birthday) and wow. you wrote me the greatest poem EVER.

current playlist includes: make you feel my love by adele. starry eyed by elliegoulding. your anything by (ta dahhh) taylor swift. three weeks, one day til madagascar. happy weekend*

enchantedhappy xoxo

from the second hotel*

[images via weliveyoung]

today. delicious berry smoothies that tasted like carefree afternoons. conversation with rene. discovered my inner musical prodigy. oh, and medschool was wonderful. the day has been one of sunshine and lovely friends. (some less lovely than others...*just sayin*) also, for a moment this afternoon.. i was in a room ("dieseksiesaal." fun to read, fun to say) with many many tables. and many many dead bodies. and tumors with hair inside. This Is Med School. [the bone marrow is the factory] tonight it's me on the couch, strawberrycheesecake icecream and twoweeksnotice. couldn't ask for anything more :) except maybe for you to see what she's really doing. still listening to: mine and i'd lie. also: boyfriend by thebestcoast -the lyrics are whiny, but the melody makes my head spin :) scissor runner by jennyandjohnny. king of the beach by thewavves. now it's the weekend, go out and play!

enchantedhappy xoxo

i say you should've known..*

the dress is topshop. im stalking fashiontoast again. as im waiting for the parentals to get back. and then yay i get to see sarahjane*

the weekend finally arrived. *joyful sigh* enjoy it. i sure will. in a relaxed, sophisticated, workaholic-ish manner.

enchantedhappy xoxo