she said, go*

i had so much i wanted to say. but then you clouded my mind. in the best way. and now missy higgins is singing my thoughts. *okay breathe* tonight: watching the sunset. staring up at the stars. getting lost (and there's no one else i'd rather have been with. it's weird how much i trust you. despite the fact that you say i've been withdrawn with you, ive never felt more vulnerable). and charles, after i highfive you tomorrow night, youll make me tea. and break the awkwardness, please.

in other news of the day: am i jealous?

"i dont know what ive done done, or if i like what ive begun. but something told me to run"

"i dont know who i am, who i am without you. all i know is that i should."

"but you taught me how to trust myself. and so i say to you, this is what i have to do."

"i need to know just how you feel, to comfort you. i need to find the key to let me in. into your heart"

"you were blessed by a different kind of inner-view, it's all magnified."

"she will love you more than i could. -she who dares to stand where i stood"

"youre my mystery, my mystery one"

"but if i listen to the dark, youll embrace me like a star; envelop me"

"i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you, all i know is that i should"

"if things get real for me down here, promise to take me to before you went away"

"my silence solidifies, til that hollow void erases you, so i can't feel at all"

"this world youre in now, it doesnt have to be alone. i'll get there somehow. cause i know i know i know when even springtime feels cold. but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see. so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. and in our honesty, together we will rise, out of our night minds and into the light at the end of their fight"

enchantedhappy xoxo

and you wont tell me*

[image via herecomesthesun]

my secrets pierce your soul

the bloodred you see in my darkness

is the sweet dream of her world

'lock my heart up and throw away the key'

you told the past

but your eyes scream the truth

in a language my heart wont speak.

enchantedhappy xoxo

let the beat build..*

i must agree with sarahjane. michael mcintyre is great. so great.

what else is great today? vintage silver jewellery. the pretty reckless. thigh-high tights. cousinly bonding. new tv shows. external harddrive swapping. black-and-white everything. stethoscopes. models backstage. wedding videos. writing on whiteboards. london being a suitable solution to your kind of heartbreak. getting ur good on. the vampire diaries books being sold at exclusive. staying home on weekends. pancakes with icecream. procrastination. finding the best perfume in the whole wide world! the kind that i breathe in and cant help but smile, filled with the fragrance of joy* and then..sarahjane having an allergic reaction to it.

enchantedhappy xoxo

and this is where emotion flares*

i spent a lot of today blog stalking. and trying to keep the people in the office calm. i was genuinely scared for them. stress levels were higher than i can handle. and i decided that i might actually love paris. shocking, i know haha. and i decided on the concept for the shoot i will do with miss fortuin and B. yes.
i listened to much deathcab and taylorswift. and i had chocolate. delicious chocolate.

im in love with these tights. they were used in almost every editorial i loved last month. i want to wear them with docs. someone get me docs! oh and iv decided on some more presents to allocate. and i am really and truly for real in love with 15 on orange. danna is going to have her birthday there. at the bar im obsessed with. we're are going for drinks there next week. "champagne and lovely frocks" says danna. woopwoop* um lisa can u please organise a masked ball for me there? thank you*

today, i saw a man who plaited his beard. and i saw ricardo (shout out to st jaaames*) looking so great. wearing an amazing trench coat. this morning i was super ..on the edge. [see twitter for exhibit a. and b] aaand i drank normal tea and actually enjoyed it. and i found the next book i want to read. it's called 'perfect' by a lady named emily. im really excited to read it. oh. roz, scarlett and i are all contemplating reintroducing the fringe into our lives.

currently obsessed with exotic tea. and stalking. of all sorts. and perfume.

and desperate to start writing again. heartbroken that all my brilliant writing from the days in the education system is lost forever.

metrorail. we'll take you there.

enchantedhappy xoxo