to let you know why*

stylecraving: these hats.

90210 flashback: "All they need to know is that youre my brother. Thats my story"

happy weekend everyone, im hoping for more rain xoxo

the battle's in your hands now*

[i would like to be her tonight.]

all im thinking is:

"omg im so bad at math. #butreally

 thank you God for giving me atleast one skill in my love for language.

 please, SAT, please be kind to me. you could make my dreams come true."

i wish: i could sit somewhere with hundreds of lanterns

 in a princess dress, drinking white hot chocolate.

but mostly, my heart whispers "please come back, james. please"

happy tuesday, i guess.

xoxo

let's play a game..*

if i were in america tonight id have taylorswift's new album already, and not have to wait forever. id also be watching the gg episode where lil j comes back. and, if i stayed for another six days, i could celebrate my favourite not-really-a-holiday in a place where they appreciate the brilliance of it. #justsayin 

xoxo

everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

stop procrastinating, finish your posters. GO*

gosh, how great are zebras? VERY. You know what else is cute..? *you guessed it* SQUIRRELS. please please please, charles. pleeeaaaassse.

today i learnt: never to buy benben a large smoothie. ever again. ever. that people steam cakes. -with irons (ahem ahem zoe). that andrew winter did not infact buy his license, and is a wonderfully capable driver. and a very efficient fudge-stealer. tonight we had birthday dinner and pinkchampagne. and many many photographs (which youre also not going to see..)

things im dying to tell you but probably never will: youre going to be an amazing husband. and a wonderful father. but really. sitting: under my camprock blanket. watching seasonfour. waiting: for you to finally realise. and tell me what to do. wishing: that even for a moment, things could be simple. me and you. yes or no. cake or... ahh who am i kidding, always cake.

enchantedhappy xoxo

she said, go*

i had so much i wanted to say. but then you clouded my mind. in the best way. and now missy higgins is singing my thoughts. *okay breathe* tonight: watching the sunset. staring up at the stars. getting lost (and there's no one else i'd rather have been with. it's weird how much i trust you. despite the fact that you say i've been withdrawn with you, ive never felt more vulnerable). and charles, after i highfive you tomorrow night, youll make me tea. and break the awkwardness, please.

in other news of the day: am i jealous?

"i dont know what ive done done, or if i like what ive begun. but something told me to run"

"i dont know who i am, who i am without you. all i know is that i should."

"but you taught me how to trust myself. and so i say to you, this is what i have to do."

"i need to know just how you feel, to comfort you. i need to find the key to let me in. into your heart"

"you were blessed by a different kind of inner-view, it's all magnified."

"she will love you more than i could. -she who dares to stand where i stood"

"youre my mystery, my mystery one"

"but if i listen to the dark, youll embrace me like a star; envelop me"

"i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you, all i know is that i should"

"if things get real for me down here, promise to take me to before you went away"

"my silence solidifies, til that hollow void erases you, so i can't feel at all"

"this world youre in now, it doesnt have to be alone. i'll get there somehow. cause i know i know i know when even springtime feels cold. but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see. so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. and in our honesty, together we will rise, out of our night minds and into the light at the end of their fight"

enchantedhappy xoxo

to be your anything*

[images via seemeeverywhere/artpixie]

that's how you make my heart feel. like it should twirl around and smile that smile. the smile only you can read, the smile your heart knows*

(nothing makes me smile like a new taylorswift song. and i just got a ton) rightnow im laughing at: monologue song (la la la) from when she was on snl. it's the greatest* mmm daddy's making delicous food. countdown to twoweeksnotice: three hours. countdown to thelakehouse: onehourhour. (not sure if ill be watching it though. my dad just told me it's like meetjoeblack, which broke my heart.) waitingfordinner songs: americangirl. your anything. barnyard song. lucky you. all by (you guessed it) taylorswift. apparently there are russian girls looking for me. um. no thankyou. i miss: gilmoregirls. blowpen artwork. the night we all stayed up downloading the chords to songs we loved to sing. you on guitar. and the 6am roadtrip that followed. mmmm freshcoriander. peppadew and feta. wonderful pesto. freshlybaked pitabread. exciting flavours exciting colours. I LOVE FOOD*

enchantedhappy xoxo

you'll never see me*

currently craving: homemade lemonade. watermelon. cotton dresses. my own apartment*

[since watching gatsby again, i want many bunches of roses in every room of my house]

it's almost my birthday! yes it is*

[haha, love it] tomorrow is madiba's birthday. how will you spend those 67 minutes?

i hope to dream of: fairytales and lemontrees. "nothing sweeter than summer time, and american honey"

enchantedhappy xoxo

oh wow, lovely*

"If we want to save anything, we first need to

truly appreciate it"

-Bernard Weber, Founder of New7Wonders

[this morning before work, i sat outside in the sun and read* my favourite quotes from what i read follow]

"For there is nothing heavier than compassion. Not even one's own pain weighs so heavy as the pain one feels with someone, for someone, a pain intensified by the imagination and prolonged by a hundred echoes."

[totally addicted to skins now. and cassie. aka hannah. she's troubled and pretty and dresses like a princess* yes i will spend my days stalking her. im sad that she leaves. but having read her character's full story, i appreciate the happy ending]

"loves are like empires: when the idea they are founded on crumbles, they, too, fade away."

"You can't measure the mutual affection of two human beings by the number of words they exchange."

— Milan Kundera

i had the greatest evening with B lastnight*

driving. yes driving. bc now she can legally drive. stalking her amazing blog. maths. youtube. hotchocolate. skins. actions to songs with dramatic endings. the romantic cd and the song i still have stuck in my head. i will love you forever.

my brother's allangray interview is right now. good luck, tim.

 
enchantedhappy xoxo

stay a while*

 

completely conincidental yet extremely priceless moment. moonstruck forever* and wow blackbelt. thankyou. i don't even have a worthy response. you are almost as amazing as me. haha! -not a joke. 

dear girl-in-this-picture. you're cute. but you should know.. i'm cooler than you. mostly bc: i have an electric blanket under my sheet. i have pink fairylights. i'm drinking the most delicious rooibostea outv a pretty porcelain teacup. i am not wearing pearls on my wrist, but thirteen sillybands -dinosaurs and sealife, to be exact. i'm reading the newnew teenvogue. and victoria's [amazing] new blog.  

[if you weren't my person. i'd wish for one as great as you. -actually, id probably be sitting in a corner being emo. with no one to just accept lol. five years is a long time, kid. let's not test the theory]

 tomorrow used to be called friday. but it became 'fruity friday'. and now it's known as 'fancy fruity friday'. hoping for suiting up at work tomorrow :) for scarlett's wedges and tamlin's "devil wears prada shoes". and we all love the green floral shirt, scar! -just sayin. and happy birthday ashley tisdale. [can't wait for my holliemail from dublin to arrive]

songs of tonight: never leave you by tinchystryder. the girl can't help it by lmfao. my generation by thewho. thought she knew by thesingletrack. don't steal our sun by thrills.

enchantedhappy xoxo

if you run it by her*

been creepin all over cute kitten photos.. my daddy says yes yay :) i'm going to name her (yeah she'll be a girl) cinnamon. kinda liking how themissionblog is turning out, getting sooo excited for antananarivo! life change of the day: separating tins from the trash when we put it out. the homeless people get 80c per kg from it, which is considerably more than the 15c for most other items. so.. making it easier for them, less scratching through the bin for things they can use. yup*

enchantedhappy xoxo

never knowing when*

 

(i'm ready for lil denim shorts again. so ready* it's not even raining here, so it's not even fun winter. gosh -wait, tomorrow itl rain just bc i said that- i want to lie in the sun all day *with sunblock, BRITT AND PAIGE!*  and to get cute new bikinis) so summer, please will you come now! and ninadobrev, you are so incredibly gorgeous. it makes me just a little bit sad. but mostly i just stare at you. -othergirl, im not really bothered by your presence.. the character you play has resulted in my lack of interest in you. that's quite lame.

[best.episode.ever.]

i'm waaay too lazy to get up for a movie or a book so i'll just sit over here, listening to the same five songs over and over. maybe i'll read the economist like scarlett told me to. hmm, yes actually. great idea :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

oh what a life*

"May your tears come from laughing

You find friends worth having

With every year passing

They mean more than gold"

"May you win but stay humble

Smile more than grumble

And know when you stumble

You're never alone"

"Never alone

Never alone

I'll be in every beat of your heart

When you face the unknown"

B, tell your mom! -vicki listens to lady antebellum*


enchantedhappy xoxo

"being rooted and established in love"..*

today, i made a list for you. i hope can you figure it out: helping me sleep. slicing things. making salad. and coffee.(not so much tea). quoting movies. knowing when a moment is serious. pretending. having awesum curly hair. taking amazing photos and never explaining them to me. wearing golfshirts. planning tuxedo. understanding me.

[i know i waited forever for this weather to come. i had a double summer last year. and my coats and boots were longing for exposure. but i find myself being envious of summer arriving in the northern hemisphere. all that i need is one dance in the rain. then summer can come. please and thank you.]

and i conclude with a cool thing you didn't screw up: us.

"There are only two ways to live your life. One, is as though there are no miracles. The other is as though everything is a miracle. "-Albert Einstein

enchantedhappy xoxo