stop procrastinating, finish your posters. GO*

gosh, how great are zebras? VERY. You know what else is cute..? *you guessed it* SQUIRRELS. please please please, charles. pleeeaaaassse.

today i learnt: never to buy benben a large smoothie. ever again. ever. that people steam cakes. -with irons (ahem ahem zoe). that andrew winter did not infact buy his license, and is a wonderfully capable driver. and a very efficient fudge-stealer. tonight we had birthday dinner and pinkchampagne. and many many photographs (which youre also not going to see..)

things im dying to tell you but probably never will: youre going to be an amazing husband. and a wonderful father. but really. sitting: under my camprock blanket. watching seasonfour. waiting: for you to finally realise. and tell me what to do. wishing: that even for a moment, things could be simple. me and you. yes or no. cake or... ahh who am i kidding, always cake.

enchantedhappy xoxo

she said, go*

i had so much i wanted to say. but then you clouded my mind. in the best way. and now missy higgins is singing my thoughts. *okay breathe* tonight: watching the sunset. staring up at the stars. getting lost (and there's no one else i'd rather have been with. it's weird how much i trust you. despite the fact that you say i've been withdrawn with you, ive never felt more vulnerable). and charles, after i highfive you tomorrow night, youll make me tea. and break the awkwardness, please.

in other news of the day: am i jealous?

"i dont know what ive done done, or if i like what ive begun. but something told me to run"

"i dont know who i am, who i am without you. all i know is that i should."

"but you taught me how to trust myself. and so i say to you, this is what i have to do."

"i need to know just how you feel, to comfort you. i need to find the key to let me in. into your heart"

"you were blessed by a different kind of inner-view, it's all magnified."

"she will love you more than i could. -she who dares to stand where i stood"

"youre my mystery, my mystery one"

"but if i listen to the dark, youll embrace me like a star; envelop me"

"i dont know if i could stand another hand upon you, all i know is that i should"

"if things get real for me down here, promise to take me to before you went away"

"my silence solidifies, til that hollow void erases you, so i can't feel at all"

"this world youre in now, it doesnt have to be alone. i'll get there somehow. cause i know i know i know when even springtime feels cold. but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see. so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. and in our honesty, together we will rise, out of our night minds and into the light at the end of their fight"

enchantedhappy xoxo

electric heartbeat moment*

[image via blackorchid]

"i think he can see through everything but my heart"

[images via buthonestly]

missadachi is back yay :) while she did her thirty days without fb ive been trying to do thirty days of trusting. thirty days of my first thought not being 'they could hurt me' or 'it's not a big deal if all they know is the person i let them see'. and it's been surprisingly liberating. sufficiently terrifying, but wonderful none the less. taylorswift's description of herself on her myspace page makes me love her even more. yes, i am on her myspace page right now. stalking: her blog. listening to: her new single, mine. and wishing: we were actually friends. haha. okay i better get to bed. to dream of: sparkly things. christmas time. sunset picnics. that night on the beach when you let me lean in and rest my head on your chest. indulging in the beauty of the moment. and never looking back. "you are the best thing that's ever been mine."

enchantedhappy xoxo

you don't know him*

(it's not fair. it's ruining my days. and making me miss your heartbeat. even though i know i'm not allowed. even though i was sure everything was going perfectly. for us both. it's not about before. it's not about why. i just really need to sleep. and to trust. i need to be able to be, even when i don't understand. and not to feel like i need to prove my honesty or sincerity.
or my love.)
currently stalking: domesticdaddy. french socialites. enrico coveri. (-youll love it, charles. go stalk!) ALSO. i just reblogged a post from iwrotethisforyou. it's long. but hectic. questioning mediafreedom in SA.

enchantedhappy xoxo

into me, here*

goodmorning to you. and to my insane new tights. which my mom wouldn't let me buy in every colour bc she thinks ill lose them. (gosh) but i wont. bc i love them.  

i also love my americanapparel + theyeahyeahyeahs tshirt. so im wearing them together. with my lumopink nails n lipstick. yay pinklipstick day :)

(i want to be leamichele) and now. to embrace the day. who'll be at lunch today? lisafortuin. the australians. kenny and his wife. yay food* and yay my new rose ring. -never really been a ring person. but things are a'changin.... ooooh. haha. images via sequinmagazine. -im so addicted.

oh and charles..? BACK OFF of snoekie. but really.

enchantedhappy xoxo

charles and bronwyn sitting in a tree*

stalking letterstocrushes. maple syrup on anything i can find. still waiting for charlie st cloud to come out. intended for today to be for reading.but it ended up being filled with makeitorbreakit.-been crying my heart out. next up, finish vd.

oh and i went to the dentist. there was a lady who looked like alek wek. her daughter screamed for hours. but she wore a silver sparkly dress* i am now officially (always offically) excited for halloween. this week was pinklipstick week. will you watch serendipity with me?

[my hair is "so brown" these days. contemplating the need for dye.]

enchantedhappy xoxo

so they know you*

still fascinated by this french boy from electricbreeze.

i miss being backstage. and the rush-but-comfort just before curtains to go up... also, great outfit.

i kinda maybe sorta want a kitten. maybe. i would like to call it cinnamon. or cranberry.

i don't know any info about this shoot, bc all the info is in french. but their outfits are great. as are the dinosaurs! quite ready to go to the museum and just be around the big model dinosaurs. and the big whale sounds machine!

current obsessions: dinosaurs. high waisted skirts. oldlady florals. dental floss. silver. thesaurus-ing. (yes, im adding pocket thesaurus to my birthday list. -the birthday the fuel team is away for. that one. actually, the fuel team is now assigned that gift. bc they are leaving me.)

thank you to charles for his wonderful word advice, haha. and for the other thing.

enchantedhappy xoxo