let's play a game..*

if i were in america tonight id have taylorswift's new album already, and not have to wait forever. id also be watching the gg episode where lil j comes back. and, if i stayed for another six days, i could celebrate my favourite not-really-a-holiday in a place where they appreciate the brilliance of it. #justsayin 

xoxo

stop procrastinating, finish your posters. GO*

gosh, how great are zebras? VERY. You know what else is cute..? *you guessed it* SQUIRRELS. please please please, charles. pleeeaaaassse.

today i learnt: never to buy benben a large smoothie. ever again. ever. that people steam cakes. -with irons (ahem ahem zoe). that andrew winter did not infact buy his license, and is a wonderfully capable driver. and a very efficient fudge-stealer. tonight we had birthday dinner and pinkchampagne. and many many photographs (which youre also not going to see..)

things im dying to tell you but probably never will: youre going to be an amazing husband. and a wonderful father. but really. sitting: under my camprock blanket. watching seasonfour. waiting: for you to finally realise. and tell me what to do. wishing: that even for a moment, things could be simple. me and you. yes or no. cake or... ahh who am i kidding, always cake.

enchantedhappy xoxo

haven't thought of yours*

yesterday. i was plagued by the word 'SALE'. it's everywhere!!! i haven't been in a mall, for so long. well. ya. bc i just used to want everything and then id build an entire imaginary wardrobe (WARDROBE) in my head, and it just wasn't getting healthy. also, i was just too busy to even windowshop. and (as victoria constantly reminds me) i don't really venture out in public these days. anywaaaay. yesterday. alllll that changed. it got dangerous. my feet really hurt. but it was totally worth it. there was a wonderful dress at hiltonweiner. but now i have people in my kitchen (three of the only people who actually read this. HI GUYS) so i better go. ahhh i found shoes that make me feel like valentines day! i might have to buy them today. love love.

enchantedhappy xoxo

build the night with my heart*

for days. i have felt anxious. frustrated. furious. rushed. like all i needed was a moment to sit. to enjoy one cup of tea. more time. i always need more time. where does the day go? why does my body not match the minutes? there's so much to do. so much to be. so many to hope for. and the moments pass by with speed beyond what my heart can understand. then. i walked in the rain. the kind of rain that isn't really rain yet. the kind that usually irritates me. only, this time it calmed me. soothed my restless heart. and suddenly, now more than ever, i realise who i need to be.

[i love bows]

today. i needed to do something. something intense. but subtle. (can something be both?)

my world feels like a physical manifestation of tereza's three dreams. and i needed to do something to show that. i wanted to do what i used to. what i stopped. but that lasts. and you'd know.

on a lighter note: i haven't had a cellphone for five days. it's been lovely. freeing. didn't realise how much time i spend checking it/on it. and i don't wear a watch anymore. so i've been living like stargirl without the constraints of time. it's the best feeling*

enchantedhappy xoxo

any more would be nothing*

got the books, im so happy. (the unbearable lightness of being by milankundera. and we wish to inform you that tomorrow will be killed with our families by philipgourevitch. and an issue of vogue*) on my way, i passed an abortion advert. -the first one i've ever seen.

[hope they still have the boots. i want them so bad]

today's argument was about what it always is: why is image so important to you. people aren't judging you as much as you panic about. surely, the opinions of those who are wouldn't matter. why seek their approval. why would you seek any person's approval so desperately. what is the insecurity you are so determined to hide. i want to know bc your pursuit tears me apart. and why do you not see.

i love to walk around town. just walk. to nowhere in particular. it's beautiful. i always find amazing places i miss when driving to my destinations. i feel happy. comfortable. adventurous. free. i get to just be me.

enchantedhappy xoxo

with her once..*

you paint me red

with your bristles

and tickly stanza's

of old keys

and doors that

could love them

you print me

on blank paper

now i'm bigger than me

bigger like you

tuck me in the cream

pages of your book

and carry me

and I'll be so pleased

bursting inside

like tiny starry fireworks

that will never

be swallowed into

empty space

or open sea

-starflowerandindigo

woke up to the sound of rain. warm with my electricblanket. cream cheese and rosemary with my breakfast. danced around the kitchen to taylorswift. wonderful start to my saturday*

just wrote jo's birthday letter. and now we're going to crash M's game-watching. yay friendship*

enchantedhappy xoxo

and fill them with destiny*

 

[LPs rockmyworld. literally.]

most incredible moment of today: thecompanygardens while the sun set. the mountain a warm orange above the beautiful old buildings, glowing as i floated through a multitude of pink roses. 

[reminiscing about plett. hope you've had a wonderful week away, B. and that you stopped smoking, paige. sunblock is the new black]

[look! it's the jakandjil bag! and ahh lovely floral docs. the jessicaszohr hat. and the tights from the macys ad! this girl's like a magazine come to life. (like that movie with tyra banks where the barbie becomes real! so great*) be my friend! haha no i will not be having a blair moment. *despite your opinions, charles*]

[image via teenvogue]

what a pretty dress. i miss the beach. and i want to go bikini shopping*

enchantedhappy xoxo

banana! no..*

 currently my desktop wallpaper. and tomorrow will be a pinklipstickday*

kinda loving these feathery skirts. [apparently. these days, i scream in my sleep. wow. things just got to a whole new level.]  

 [jessicasmith, it doesn't feel real that you're here. it's insane. but at the same time, the way the three of us were laughing on the couch about the randomest things -"i want the dinosaur sillybands! do not lick the teenvogue! waaait, we'll leave now"...feels like we've never been apart. -let alone for a year! so good to have you here. gosh. ]finally realised why it's called lafytaffy (thanks, jessica haha). joke that reminds me of you: "[68] Q: what did one autumn leaf say to another? A: i'm falling for you."

 
[last friday without your tattoo, tb!] miss adachi, all this is making me super excited for next summer. can't wait to experience all this with you :) i'll email you soon. forever and always*
 
enchantedhappy xoxo

..and uv already got me coming undone..*

[i wasn't just saying it, i really do miss you knowing me]
"Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you."
~ Dr. Seuss. thanks, blackbelt*

amanda seyfried. those miu miu shoes. the beach. amazingly oldschool outfit. need i say more?

i love these shoes. and my islc family. and the fact that i can go over to B's house in the middle of the day in my pajamas to play rockband and eat chocolate mousse. also, the way her mom kindly let us know that none of us should give up on university in favour of a career in music.

sarahjane, this is missoni water made me think of you*

currently stalking: theduckduckcollective. already hooked on: 'pretty little liars' ..crystal, wanna hook a girl up? why, thank you :) still listening to: kissin' u. over and over again :) if i ever stop watching greys, il dream happy tonight*

enchantedhappy xoxo

he whispers 'te quiero'...*

everytime i watch 10thingsihateaboutyou i think of you, sarahjane. just like everytime i see a cupcake. and use the makeup you brought me from england. and whenever i see burberry. and chanel. and sparklers* i shall be using your vanilla cupcake recipe tomorrow :)

"She believes in all the magic of hopes and dreams, and she’ll fight until it proves true in your life. –Not so that you’ll agree, but to inspire your heart never to give up on its truest wish. Her eyes sing of honesty, and I trust her with everything that I am. Her heart holds my secrets, my fears; and there’s nowhere else I’d have them be."

i've realised: that mxit is way more complicated this time round. HIMYM just keeps getting better. how endearing sheldon's craziness is. how much i've missed twitter. how incredibly beautiful the locket my parents gave me is. that ohmygosh it's three am!!

enchantedhappy xoxo

and two is better than one..*

i am now officially addicted to journeyman. and dollhouse. i have so much work to do before the end of the week. oh we got our discovery cards! it's got my full name on it though, sigh. has anyone seen my grey jeans? babysitting eli tomorrow, best baby ever yay! and now i'm going to go stand in the rain.

enchantedhappy xoxo

to share another cup of tea with you*

currently obsessed with indigo. ankle boots. strong coffee. orchids. and 'make you feel my love'.

this. is what i feel like doing right now. it would be perfect :)

i got to chat to andreas this evening :) yay finally! i have missed him. yay and he's home for a week on saturday* this evening we went to the waterfront. i picked out the most gorgeous underwear in the whole wide world. and i listened to my new obssesion over and over. and i had a strange encounter with two men. one sincere, one stupid. i also [ohmygosh] found.. oh let's just say, i touched it and i knew. even my dad sighed a sigh of appreciation. i looked in the mirror and .. i've never experienced it before. it must be love. i honestly feel like i was born for that moment. destiny reigned down upon me. it's.. wow.

i was planning outfits all around the store. ahhh <3

tomorrow, the weekend begins. a whirlwind of bonding it shall be. yet i shan't be receiving smses from victoria. which saddens my heart.

"...to make you feel my love."

enchantedhappy xoxo

yeah, but i wish you were my shadow*

today it did not rain. which is lame. i wore boots anyway. victoria says she isn't a geek. she also said "oh rabbits". which is kinda wierd. or, dare i say, cute. (yeah i did) there was a dramatic twist in 'the lovely bones' this morning. i literally gasped while reading it in the train... *slightly awkward*. rose is going to nyu. im super jealous. it's five months and twenty-seven sleeps til my nineteenth. both mikeday and victoria know exactly what i want from them. and my daddy knows to buy me the october issues of all my favourite magazines. i kinda want to be markhunter. oh, the shoes are prada. and the image is via jak & jil. and now i shall return to blowing up balloons. happy birthday, meagan*

enchantedhappy xoxo

and i knew it was you*

i want to go somewhere sparkly. so sparkly that i can't help but smile. so sparkly that it'll outshine everything else in my life. and then i want to spin around so it all blurs together.

and i want the three of us to be reunited. it's not the same without you.. i thought it would be fine. but when thursday night happened.. it wasn't. anyway, if you were here, we would drive around with nowhere to go. and play music really loud. singing along, and missing all the notes. you'd know i wanted to cry. and wait until i did. and then you would give me the best advice. and we would eat random food. which you made while i watched tv :)

*sigh* it would be lovely if we could just..

i want pretty grey boots. and lil black ankle boots.

"Do you like Shakespeare, Jeff Buckley, watching movies on Sundays?

Do you like kissing when its raining, making faces in the station?

Do you like…I need to know.

Do you like…Before you go.

Show me the place where you come from

And the places you dream of

I wanna know everything you are

But before we get that far..."

so i shall go back to listening to my ipod. and singing very loudly.

i have no idea what im going as to the hollywood halloween party tonight. i love the theme. i hope i go to the states before halloween. as for the outift.. we'll have to see what spontaneity brings* and then later i get to spend the night mocking victoria. yay!

im glad it's raining. i like it when the weather matches my mood.

enchantedhappy xoxo

indigo stardust*

i'm not usually big into the whole flowers vibe. but these are pretty. and they remind me of the episode in gg season three when they have the big thanksgiving vibe. and the table is all pretty. all weekend i've had the song in my head. actually since i heard it on gg. and then i got the new paramore cd and it was there, yay!

"you are.. the only exception. and i'm on my way to believing"

it's in my head. and written on my arm. and in my notebook. and on twitter. everywhere! but it's so beautiful so it's okay*

the second picture is currently my desktop background. tiled ofcourse* i want the shoes. like now. please and thank you. my hair is uber dark. and shorter. but i like it. it makes me want to wear intense lipstick all the time. so i do. and i am loving the happy sunny weather. i am in the airconditioned office mostly, but i get to wear sunny happy dresses so it's still exciting! and im off tomorrow. what shall i be doing? sleeping, most likely. and lunch with matt at uct. if i wake up in time.

i have been writing looooong letters. i shall most likely post them this week. and eating jelly powder. blackcurrent :) okay, off

i finally got my turquoise tshirt dress back so im wearing it today. and today i really like teal. and indigo. and i am excited about victoria's tatoo! like a lot. anyway...

enchantedhappy xoxo