love and courage*

life should be simple.

yes or no. happy or sad. light and darkness.

i shouldnt be this hesistant.

i shouldnt think this much

before i run to you.

am i scared?

but you are mine

and i am yours.

i tried not to look into your eyes today

bc you can always tell.

so i just lay there

listening to you breathe

hoping you wouldnt ask me

hoping you wouldnt see.

callenjefferson's photographs never fail to amaze me. i especially love her beach photos.  

i thought i was ready for summer, but with this beautiful rain today... im having second thoughts. #thankyouglobalwarming

xoxo

buckhead, please..*

this photo takes me right back to the catch-your-breath-beautiful autumn mornings i was fortunate enough to experience in atlanta. playing in the park, falling into piles of perfectly fragrant leaves. walking to the schoolbus, through the most incredibly beautiful trees ive ever seen. i loved waking up in the manor at buckhead, i loved eating deliciously unfamiliar cereal, i loved anticipating the cafeteria breakfasts, and holding my dad's hand as we floated through the biting air. is it sad that im literally tearing up just thinking about it, there's nowhere else id rather be rightnow...

tears at seventhirty*

dream places,

like all fragile things,

are always best

in winter

when the sun is low

and shadows long.

when shallow breaths

taste the chill air

laced with cinnamon

and fire

and delicately

is the only way

to hold anything.

like old china tea cups

and christmas tree baubles.

(the painted glass kind.)

and hearts

of course.

-cloud gatherer hold me down

hearbreaking moment at thesoupkitchen this evening. actually, i take that back. it was heartwarming. inspiring, even. aaand i baked delicious scones.-turns out there's hope yet. having the weirdest moment looking back to how this day started.and transformed into joy. feels like it may be ending the same way though. aaaaand now. i must go wash my hair (ughhhh..) no more avoiding it. we were like sisters. but haven't seen her in... forever. nine am: reunite. i have to be in a z-card shoot to save her education.

enchantedhappy xoxo

i cant resist the day*

today, the rain was beautiful. i received magical emails. miss adachi inspired my heart. as she tends to do. i baked. (yes, it was from a 'just add oil/water/eggs' pack. but it was delicious. and it looked edible, which is an accomplishment for me. and candywandy was proud of me, so be nice) and researched more colleges id like to attend.

[images via formeforyou]

i wrote happiness. had philosphical discussions. and tb drove me home. we listened to an insane remix of signs. "aaaat your funeral i was sooo upsettt" i am falling inlove with post-bartbass'-death chuck. again. bc he's just so much hotter. oh, i watched the heartbreaking season three finale of greek. and leigh posted a spoiler about chuck.

happy first-day-of-college, jessicasmith*

enchantedhappy xoxo

call out my name..*

[images via tumblr. jakandjil]

apparently today is the hottest day of the year in the usa. ive been staring at my fingerprints. and watching birds fly* this weekend has been filled with procrastination. and highwaisted skirts. and i found my tomy takkies! ive always liked flamingoes. and thats what id like to wear today. happy sunday, enjoy the sunshine :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

be my everything*

[blouberg]

"When I call on Your name You answer

When I fall You are there by my side

You delivered me out of darkness

Now I stand in the hope of new life"

[jenna's birthday]

"By grace I'm free

You've rescued me

All I am is Yours"

[image via lifeinlomo]

"I've found a love greater than life itself

I've found a hope stronger and nothing compares

I once was lost

Now I'm alive in You"

"It is You whom I'll trust at all times"

[images via cheapthrills]

"Love came down and rescued me."

if you read anything today, no this week, let it be miss adachi's story. big news of the day: i wore my daddy's shirt today (belted, with my striped blue blazer, tights and tomy takkies) and both tim and blackbelt approved. shocker. times truly have changed* my daddy left the best comment on my happy fathers day post. tim hughes playing in the kitchen... "it all begins and ends with you" and now, the shops and then to lunch. it really is sunday :) wishes do come true. [no, it's not thesecret. but i did put it out into the universe, just sayin.]

enchantedhappy xoxo

"being rooted and established in love"..*

today, i made a list for you. i hope can you figure it out: helping me sleep. slicing things. making salad. and coffee.(not so much tea). quoting movies. knowing when a moment is serious. pretending. having awesum curly hair. taking amazing photos and never explaining them to me. wearing golfshirts. planning tuxedo. understanding me.

[i know i waited forever for this weather to come. i had a double summer last year. and my coats and boots were longing for exposure. but i find myself being envious of summer arriving in the northern hemisphere. all that i need is one dance in the rain. then summer can come. please and thank you.]

and i conclude with a cool thing you didn't screw up: us.

"There are only two ways to live your life. One, is as though there are no miracles. The other is as though everything is a miracle. "-Albert Einstein

enchantedhappy xoxo

oh look what you do, ruby blue*

it's misty and cold. the rain is pouring.heavily. and it's beautiful.

i feel like going on a roadtrip. and being in my pajamas. and watching the devil wears prada. mikeday's mom got the boots that i've been wanting. theyr so beautiful.

i finally got to write. and it's a good piece, i think. it's the first happy thing i've written. [yeah, im pretty sure if i wasn't so hyperactive in class, the teachers would've been worried.] but i like it*

current obsessions: hot chocolate. electric breeze. exciting new twominutenoodles flavours. photos from the met gala. colleges in newyork.

enchantedhappy xoxo

"a rising sun in the night time of our fear"..*

the eighteenth-weekend was wonderful. i took something like eight-hundred photos on saturday. they'll be coming soon to a blog near you. i am extremely exhausted, with much work to complete before morning comes this way. but first, i will make some tea.

currently obsessed with: liquid-liner. strawberry smoothies. synonyms. C's modelling career. finding my turquoise eyeshadow. adam (owl city)'s tweets. child psychology.

i should be working. both T and B have kindly reminded me. but i suddenly feel the urge to write. i blame M. i'm going to take advantage of this moment, so i guess the work will have to wait..and i'm okay with that. what i'm not okay with, however, is the amount of time ster kinekor is making me wait to see 'the last song'. but it's only five months eight days til my nineteenth so i think i can make it through :)

i will dream of velvet dresses. of chimes blowing in the wind. and snowflakes dancing in the air. and i will spend tomorrow reading about princesses.

enchantedhappy xoxo

searching for alfonzo..*

today i walked into danna's office and she screamed 'tiny floral day' in her cute american accent. and then we burst our laughing. apparently my dress reminds her off a ralph lauren trend. we decided it would be perfect with the ultimate leather jacket. which im still hunting for. she found hers, but since it was lined with cashmere and keira knightley owned one, it's a lil bit expensive. we also decided that she will date mysterious wealthy forty-ish guy. bc he is lovely.

during this last week things have got to freaky-extreme-crime-drama movie level. the kind i hoped never happened in real life. in my road. literally all the houses around ours. and having moved into the apartment away from the house alone, and being very familiar with criminal movies.. im kinda freaking out. okay, im REALLY freaking out. but it's raining now so that's exciting :) also exciting is the wonderful-but-heartbreaking conversations i got to have with two of the greatest friends i've ever had. who i miss terribly.

off to go watch

the Bayern Munich game. with stefan and my daddy. somewhere where the vibe will be great. i'll drink white hotchocolate. and wish i was in san francisco.

enchantedhappy xoxo

glitter in the air*

today, the weather is perfect. victoria blogged. danna brought me the uk vogue. and i began to read the complete and unabridged edition of 'a little princess' yet again. it's pretty much my favourite book in the whole wide world. it's wonderful. sara crewe, wise beyond her years, has the imagination, loving father and strength of character i wish all girls had*

enchantedhappy xoxo

yeah, but i wish you were my shadow*

today it did not rain. which is lame. i wore boots anyway. victoria says she isn't a geek. she also said "oh rabbits". which is kinda wierd. or, dare i say, cute. (yeah i did) there was a dramatic twist in 'the lovely bones' this morning. i literally gasped while reading it in the train... *slightly awkward*. rose is going to nyu. im super jealous. it's five months and twenty-seven sleeps til my nineteenth. both mikeday and victoria know exactly what i want from them. and my daddy knows to buy me the october issues of all my favourite magazines. i kinda want to be markhunter. oh, the shoes are prada. and the image is via jak & jil. and now i shall return to blowing up balloons. happy birthday, meagan*

enchantedhappy xoxo

bound by when*

hmmm i don't know how i feel about that just yet. ah but it reminds me, one day at work i found this thing called operation beautiful. where they leave post-its randomly everywhere for other women. telling them they are great, and beautiful and wonderful. it's so cute*

i spent today listening to mutemath. and then 'brand new eyes' over and over. the entire album is just so great. i feel like im living inside 'brick by boring brick'. lol im so overboard dramatic. anyway, now im listening to the carolina liar album, coming to terms. and pondering what i shall be wearing to work tomorrow. if only i knew it would be rainy* i want to wear my boots... maybe even a coat! that would be wonderful! so this weekend was.. eventful. and lacked in hours of sleep. and i once again realised how amazing victoria and B are. for real. i am really lucky to have them in my life. anywaaaay. pizza pizza yay thanks daddy :) i just realized il get keys to my bedroom bc it's like not part of the house. oooh yay. now i must find the perfect keyring!

i think i shall go to bed now. i want to read..

ohmygosh how pretty is this room?! i want to live there.

and i want to be a princess. please*

enchantedhappy xoxo

and i knew it was you*

i want to go somewhere sparkly. so sparkly that i can't help but smile. so sparkly that it'll outshine everything else in my life. and then i want to spin around so it all blurs together.

and i want the three of us to be reunited. it's not the same without you.. i thought it would be fine. but when thursday night happened.. it wasn't. anyway, if you were here, we would drive around with nowhere to go. and play music really loud. singing along, and missing all the notes. you'd know i wanted to cry. and wait until i did. and then you would give me the best advice. and we would eat random food. which you made while i watched tv :)

*sigh* it would be lovely if we could just..

i want pretty grey boots. and lil black ankle boots.

"Do you like Shakespeare, Jeff Buckley, watching movies on Sundays?

Do you like kissing when its raining, making faces in the station?

Do you like…I need to know.

Do you like…Before you go.

Show me the place where you come from

And the places you dream of

I wanna know everything you are

But before we get that far..."

so i shall go back to listening to my ipod. and singing very loudly.

i have no idea what im going as to the hollywood halloween party tonight. i love the theme. i hope i go to the states before halloween. as for the outift.. we'll have to see what spontaneity brings* and then later i get to spend the night mocking victoria. yay!

im glad it's raining. i like it when the weather matches my mood.

enchantedhappy xoxo

better than one..*

[image via pepperandchips]
seriously. such a great shoot. iv been watching chicago (thanks, B) and flip.. it never seizes to amaze me. everything about the era. and the brilliance of the production!

so today is the last wednesday roz will be in the country. gosh. epic. well. not forever. but basically forever. it's heartbreaking. today it also began to rain. more like storm. it's lovely. well, not if you run the risk of death by lightning bolt. but on the upside, you may get superpowers. i believe it. just like i believe that if i try hard enough, someday i'll grow up and be able to roar like simba. ever since i read danica's post on twitter about the delicious tea, thats all i want right now. i mean, this rooibos is delicious, but... it's not the same. ooh the Woolworths sale started today.-the big one. it's like basically free! (made me think of you, crystal, and how we always contemplated skipping school to get some Country Road, but always found out too late bc my mom n your sisiter never told us when it was on!) Ananda came into the office all excited, she bought large amounts of baby clothes for Taru! so cute :)

i would like a polaroid camera. in the lovely bones (creepy yet beautiful movie... oh im reading the book. well, i stopped for now. bc i kept seeing everything as murder related and id be freaking myself out. like olives. and clothes falling down. theyd all turn into bloody fingers and limbs..yeah, thats wierd. * now im reading 'coco and igor' it is indeed "a fine, entrancingly poetic novel" .. it relates to 'coco avant chanel' quite nicely. hmm i would like to watch that tonight. maybe i will.)

aww i found out (while researching the top luxury hotels -yes i do have the greatest job haha) that 'serendipity' is playing at the pink flamingo tomorrow night. ahhh i looove the movie. and i wana go. it is, however, roz's pre-farewell thing. at the fat cactus. and obv i shall go there!
well, into the rain i go. home sweet home*

to sleep, most likely. and to look for a megaphone for matt to use during the argus. oh, yes, uct. so many people. too many familiar faces. gosh. had a lovely time. but wow it's ..too much. yes, i will be there next week again tho haha :) and i WILL see you, chai tea!

im looking at miss adachi's jordan mission photos. they are lovely. so proud of you :) can't wait to hear all about it! hope you get my package soon :)

forever and always*

enchantedhappy xoxo

indigo stardust*

i'm not usually big into the whole flowers vibe. but these are pretty. and they remind me of the episode in gg season three when they have the big thanksgiving vibe. and the table is all pretty. all weekend i've had the song in my head. actually since i heard it on gg. and then i got the new paramore cd and it was there, yay!

"you are.. the only exception. and i'm on my way to believing"

it's in my head. and written on my arm. and in my notebook. and on twitter. everywhere! but it's so beautiful so it's okay*

the second picture is currently my desktop background. tiled ofcourse* i want the shoes. like now. please and thank you. my hair is uber dark. and shorter. but i like it. it makes me want to wear intense lipstick all the time. so i do. and i am loving the happy sunny weather. i am in the airconditioned office mostly, but i get to wear sunny happy dresses so it's still exciting! and im off tomorrow. what shall i be doing? sleeping, most likely. and lunch with matt at uct. if i wake up in time.

i have been writing looooong letters. i shall most likely post them this week. and eating jelly powder. blackcurrent :) okay, off

i finally got my turquoise tshirt dress back so im wearing it today. and today i really like teal. and indigo. and i am excited about victoria's tatoo! like a lot. anyway...

enchantedhappy xoxo

don't say*

the weather is changing. it's stil not. but not like 'oh maan i have to go to the beach today' hot. and it makes me sad bc iv bn loving wearing sunny dresses and pretty lil skirts. *sigh* now it's at an irritating temperature where its too hot to wear boots but too cold to wear tights. and so i just end up wearing jeans. which is great, but not all the time. and i never know if i need to wear a long top or just bring a jacket. ohmygosh so many issues hahaha.

this is a photo from the teen vogue shoot. it's called 'finding nirvana'. it's lovely.

right now, im listening to the glee songs. and obsessing over fashion toast. the blog. duh. and flip, just realised i havent replied to V's message. i got distracted by the Valentine's Day premier on tv. and then ghd-ing my hair.
and now.. all i must do is find my phone. haha

we may go on the cablecar tomorow. and picnic vibe. us valentine-less people. it may be fun. except there's a reason i haven't been on it before. HUGE (possibly irrational) fear. like, a "whhhy are you going on it, u will die!!!" kinda fear. so we'll see how things go. IF things go.

enchantedhappy xoxo