i miss nothing, i miss everything*

it's a lovely day filled with sunshine. the kinda day that's perfect for drinks like this.

and yet all im waiting for is evening.  

  i don't know why, but that's all i want right now... evening.

 candles. sweet potato. (@Lee_lah's) linen pants. brie..

and allll of this: 

[my brother says i look creepy when im holding a knife. #probablytrue]

and for you, i proclaim today's song: everytime you lie by demilovato.

happy birthday, daddy.

you're my favourite*

xoxo

take me home*

i like leaning into your chest.

and telling you my secrets.

i like when you ask me questions with your eyes.

and when everything i wish

comes true in a conversation.

obsessing over: just tonight by theprettyreckless

"when the light hits your eyes, it's telling me im right"

xoxo

you again*

 You mean that much to me
And it's hard to show
Gets hectic inside of me
When you go
Can I confess these things
To you
Well I don't know
Embedded in my chest
And it
Hurts to hold

I couldn't spill my heart
My eyes gleam looking in from the dark
I walk out in stormy weather
Hold my words, keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip

Night time
Sympathize
I've been working on
White lies
So I'll tell the truth
I'll give it up to you
And when the day come
It will have all been fun
We'll talk about it soon

this song. then: maps by theyeahyeahyeahs..

and the weekend is already perfect.

"wait, they don't love you like i love you"

xoxo

as i was leaving, too soon*

nighttime photos are my favourite.

turns out i like jumping in rain puddles.

and burning incense in my bedroom...

aaand i like:

sparkly nailpolish

being friends with victoriasmith

the smell of my new shampoo.

(if youre around me when ive just washed my hair,

i WILL make you smell it.

and you will thank me.

haha #butreally)

 dear telephone wire photos

 i like you very much, too.

more lovely things:

old ladies with long grey hair.

the kind of son-in-law my dad is.

apartment scouting with my dad. #ilovetown

this weekend, get lost in: night time by the xx

and fall in love with the clouds.

xoxo

dearLY*

you make me happy.

more happy than this photograph

of snow and sparkliness and christmas

three things i really love.

bc more than those

i love your pretty brown hair

and that your ipod always has the best music

i love that you let me email you at 3am

and you never get mad about it

i love that you seem to think im something special

someone worth your time

i love that we like the same songs

and that you pvr disneychannel

i love you more than that hotchocolate

more than my desire to buy candycanes

more than romantic roadtrips

more than staring up at the sky*

you are wonderful, leigh leigh

you light up my life

xoxo

like a fireworks show*

You’ll take me to the vintagerecord store

Down the road from where you live

And we’ll show each other beautiful covers

Legends in their younger days

Then we’ll walk through the streets

Of our lovely hometown

Our footsteps in the snow

Fairy lights in the trees

Streetlamps guiding the way

To the house where you tell me

You dream of raising your daughters

And that brilliant son you'll
Play ball with down the street

We sneak out back and

See the beautiful garden

'We could build a treehouse or a princess tent'

You say

-All I see is the isle

I want to walk down to you

With my hair up

In my perfect white dress

And they'd capture the moments

We laughed on the swings

And danced by the tree

You turn to me and smile

That dangerously charming

Look in your eyes

Captivates my heart

-I see you dreaming

I feel you hoping

And suddenly my dreams melt into yours

We’re standing in line

At crowded a mall

With giant sparkling trees

Waiting to meet Santa

To tell him they’ve been good 

To the North Pole we post

The wishes of our precious little ones

We’re sitting by the fire just before bedtime

Drinking your famous hot cocoa

And they're wearing the sweaters
Your mom made

With all the love in the world

Lost in my dreaming

You gently lift my chin

Say the light makes me glow

That I make your heart happy

And there it is

The perfect kiss

-Sparks fly between the flutters

The perfect first date

And im dreaming of forever 

Looking into your eyes

Holding your hand

Dancing to the music

Of our beating hearts

And im dreaming of forever with you
xoxo

everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

the plastic-made dreams*

"Talk all the talk with a poet's style

Tongue like electric, eyes like a child

Buy all your wives and the classic cars

Live like a savior, live like the stars

Buy all your highs and the classic cars

Die on the front page, just like the stars"

"Pace all the rooms with a jealous style

Tongue like electric, eyes like a child

Paint all your soul with the grand designs
Reach like a savior, your heart on the line

Talk all the talk with a model's smile"

tonight's song: say you dont want it by onenightonly.

i will dream sweetly.

xoxo

it's all gone*

can't seem to think clearly.

or make real sentences.

even lisafortuin is making fun of me.

#timesaretough

but this rain is beautiful.

watch the rain fall in the glow of a streetlight.

#itsmyfavourite

my medicine by theprettyreckless. is everything i need tonight.

 i imagine living there and suddenly i can breathe. #letsstartover

and this. is so weird, but i cant stop looking at it. #creepyfact

[sometimes. i plug in earphones and just listen to myself type.]

xoxo

where the light is*

 the intro melody in say by johnmayer.

 everything it makes me feel or think is my world today.

and to quote my email to leigh:

 "i feel like spinning around in sparkly colours and not worrying*

so that's what il do."

contemplating:

how insanely beautiful trees are.

the colours in the sky; how are there so many at once?

and the way it seems like theres gold paint dripping across the clouds

as the sky sets behind them.

how having children changes you.

the kind of heartbreak ive been protected from.

im nearing the end of houserules.

it felt like id never get past halfway.

im really really enjoying it.

it makes me want to study psych.

 and hug every mom in the world for the sacrifices they make. 

i love the way she writes.

the rest of the night will be spent...

trying to keep my room as dark as possible, while fighting the urge to finish the book.

listening to johnmayer's album, heavier things.

and eating vanilla icecream.

xoxo

and my heart*

 [today's desktop background]

spent this morning..

reading: nylon.

painting: my nails electricblue

listening to: the killers

 today's #fashioncraving: thigh-high tights. and the perfect tshirt dress.

 in other news of the day:

 my favourite berrysmoothie at cgc with C.

in the greatest takeaway cup.

 bc they know #thatshowilikeit.

and then he diagnosed me with sometihng serious-sounding

#rude.

so we watched the wrestling in india.

[songs of the day: bones / a white demon love song by thekillers. ]

rightnow id like:

to be on the beach, very early in the morning.

 when it's misty

but fresh

and everything seems to whisper

xoxo

square one is lightness*

i found my truelove today.

on made.

between his ghostchair wayfarers, his love for the 50s and his amazingly preppy outfits..

i can just tell, it's meant to be!

and if for some reason he doesn't feel the same way.. #highlyunlikely

il find love in: cotton shirtdresses, reading in the sunshine, walking across bridges, early morning beach moments, beautiful doorways, being the only one in the street, staring up at the sky, or into the ocean..

waiting: for thursday. craving: lemon sorbet and heavenlyhash. listening to: coldplay.

all i want to do tomorrow is learn to play guitar.

today's song obsession: introducing me by nickjonas.

these photos [via pepperandchips] are exactly how i feel tonight.

xoxo

she's nineteen*

[my birthday sunrise]

today was a fairytale*

it really really was. completely perfect :)

it began way before midnight sang to me.

and the way my heart feels will last way past twentyfourhours.

there's nothing like a perfect birthday to make you feel loved.

[yes i did wear my tiara everywhere i went today]

i wish i could mention every moment that made me smile

im happy happy happy!

im wearing way too much jewellery, and il never take it off.

song obsession: miss nothing by theprettyreckless.

christmas movies. massacre stories. philosophy 101. sunrise. cranberryjuice. flowers. "who's amanda?" faraway friends. lost recipes. love letters. no rain. fireflies. forever friends. wonderful surprises. lovely bedtime phonecall. feeling like a princess. you singing my name..

 i have incredible friends!

birthday birthday birthday

xoxo