everyone has their own sound*

i want to shatter something. throw it across the room and hear it break. but then i want to dance in a greengreen garden dusted with sparkly things that the sun hits perfectly. and to feel like everything is happening in slow motion.

today's song obsession: let it out now by leeland. currently addicted to calla. the day was filled with: new old bedrooms. writing loveletters. us, just being.together in the best way. longing for: new places. beautiful snow with miss adachi. and our long awaited skype-date.

You ride away
as though it's

already behind you

Lost to marvelous things

discarded

for me to gather

all the broken

skeleton leaves

and torn dragonfly wings

tied together

like soft whispers

shhhhh...

don't let them touch

can't let them see

drowning now
like butterflies

in a honey sea.

-starflowerandindigo 

reading justagirl. makes me go "awww". and makes me love you even more. and. it makes me realise that maybe (just maybe) i should ease up, bc shame you really like him.

  "I love you, more than blurs on my eyelashes (tinted with eventide) and the summer sunset at twilight and bird faces on the moon. (Your ladder to the stars)"

my world hurts when youre not in it. and that seems like all the time these days...

xoxo

and you wont tell me*

[image via herecomesthesun]

my secrets pierce your soul

the bloodred you see in my darkness

is the sweet dream of her world

'lock my heart up and throw away the key'

you told the past

but your eyes scream the truth

in a language my heart wont speak.

enchantedhappy xoxo

the way you show you love me*

[i wasn't implying that you were. i was saying please don't. she doesn't ever get to be ..one of yours. and this is not about trust or accusations. you know where i stand, whether you choose to believe it or not. don't get offended or mad with me. it's just... i see her and i worry. she isn't who she acts like. let me be protective of one thing, okay.]

 today wasn't fun. at all.

it felt like everything horrible that could happen chose today to show up.

but then i got a perfectly-timed romantic gift :) and a lovely conversation.

and yummy dessert*

 thankyou to you both.

joining in on much love mondays. and now to dream sweetly* (mostly bc all ive eaten today is jelly, strawberrycheesecake icecream, milktart and jellytots) bigbangtheory is rocking my world tonight. have a wonderful week :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

into me, here*

goodmorning to you. and to my insane new tights. which my mom wouldn't let me buy in every colour bc she thinks ill lose them. (gosh) but i wont. bc i love them.  

i also love my americanapparel + theyeahyeahyeahs tshirt. so im wearing them together. with my lumopink nails n lipstick. yay pinklipstick day :)

(i want to be leamichele) and now. to embrace the day. who'll be at lunch today? lisafortuin. the australians. kenny and his wife. yay food* and yay my new rose ring. -never really been a ring person. but things are a'changin.... ooooh. haha. images via sequinmagazine. -im so addicted.

oh and charles..? BACK OFF of snoekie. but really.

enchantedhappy xoxo

banana! no..*

 currently my desktop wallpaper. and tomorrow will be a pinklipstickday*

kinda loving these feathery skirts. [apparently. these days, i scream in my sleep. wow. things just got to a whole new level.]  

 [jessicasmith, it doesn't feel real that you're here. it's insane. but at the same time, the way the three of us were laughing on the couch about the randomest things -"i want the dinosaur sillybands! do not lick the teenvogue! waaait, we'll leave now"...feels like we've never been apart. -let alone for a year! so good to have you here. gosh. ]finally realised why it's called lafytaffy (thanks, jessica haha). joke that reminds me of you: "[68] Q: what did one autumn leaf say to another? A: i'm falling for you."

 
[last friday without your tattoo, tb!] miss adachi, all this is making me super excited for next summer. can't wait to experience all this with you :) i'll email you soon. forever and always*
 
enchantedhappy xoxo

you built up a world of magic / because your real life is tragic*

it rained all through the night. all through the day. and it was wonderful*

this girl is very pretty. i would like her jacket. and the image is via jak&jil. which im addicted to. just like pepperandchips. and blackcurrant jellypowder. mmm delicious! i spent the day wearing grey. with my daddy's big german military coat. wearing lovely red lipstick, like hers. i went a lil overboard with the screwdriver in my wall. and i had a good, productive conversation with demi. who, later on in the day, i cried about. yeah, loserish. but it was an emotional moment. i can't believe that, after everything we've shared, the three of us are going to be apart for so long. today, roz reminded me how incredibly gorgeous both zac efron and chace crawford are. and she may or may not have reignited an obsession. ooh and today stefan did his first stitches. -closing up someone's chest, dang. im going to paint my nails deep purple now. lastnight i watched the episode of HIMYM about 'firsts'. but tomorrow will be filled with lasts.

oh. i would like to take this opportunity to formally and publicly apologize to victoria. for the oh-so-many wrong things i did in the previous post. the usage of improper vocabulary in close proximity to your name was blatantly unacceptable. i hope someday all shall be set right. justice must be served.

enchantedhappy xoxo