she's a good girl..*

many things i missed this morning: summers away at the beach with you. perfect birthdays. best friends who can eat as much cake as i can. not having to explain myself, bc you can see it before i even breathe your name. you being here with me.

 

but as the day progressed, so my world improved.

dinner plans with my inspiration. a completely quotable movie. squishy candy. a beautiful day of sunshine. application forms. bonding with my brother. roads lined with greengreen trees. new glee episodes. catchy lovesongs. rubyred nailpolish. driving through the city at night. today was filled with life's little joys*

my heart is smiling, as i drink my delicious hot rooibos tea and tell you i want you to bake me a cake. bc nothing makes me happy like watching the sun sparkle on the sea* that, and having the most incredible friends in the world :)

songs of the night: every song i have by matthewmole. (go.download.them.)

enchantedhappy xoxo

and fill them with destiny*

 

[LPs rockmyworld. literally.]

most incredible moment of today: thecompanygardens while the sun set. the mountain a warm orange above the beautiful old buildings, glowing as i floated through a multitude of pink roses. 

[reminiscing about plett. hope you've had a wonderful week away, B. and that you stopped smoking, paige. sunblock is the new black]

[look! it's the jakandjil bag! and ahh lovely floral docs. the jessicaszohr hat. and the tights from the macys ad! this girl's like a magazine come to life. (like that movie with tyra banks where the barbie becomes real! so great*) be my friend! haha no i will not be having a blair moment. *despite your opinions, charles*]

[image via teenvogue]

what a pretty dress. i miss the beach. and i want to go bikini shopping*

enchantedhappy xoxo

banana! no..*

 currently my desktop wallpaper. and tomorrow will be a pinklipstickday*

kinda loving these feathery skirts. [apparently. these days, i scream in my sleep. wow. things just got to a whole new level.]  

 [jessicasmith, it doesn't feel real that you're here. it's insane. but at the same time, the way the three of us were laughing on the couch about the randomest things -"i want the dinosaur sillybands! do not lick the teenvogue! waaait, we'll leave now"...feels like we've never been apart. -let alone for a year! so good to have you here. gosh. ]finally realised why it's called lafytaffy (thanks, jessica haha). joke that reminds me of you: "[68] Q: what did one autumn leaf say to another? A: i'm falling for you."

 
[last friday without your tattoo, tb!] miss adachi, all this is making me super excited for next summer. can't wait to experience all this with you :) i'll email you soon. forever and always*
 
enchantedhappy xoxo

"it does not need saving. we do. from ourselves"..*

today, i had a lovely phonecall with B. [send me the link, britt!!!] and missadachi is off to the governer'shonoracademy. superexciting! i have listened to thejonasbrothers and highschoolmusical soundtracks all day. my daddy just made a delicious smoothie for me, while i read up about severn suzuki. who spoke at the UN earth summit when she was twelve.

"Coming here today, I have no hidden agenda. I am fighting for my future. Losing my future is not like losing an election or a few points on the stock market. I am here to speak for all generations to come." .."Do not forget why you’re attending these conferences, who you’re doing this for .. we are your own children. You are deciding what kind of world we will grow up in. Parents should be able to comfort their children by saying 'everything's going to be alright', 'we’re doing the best we can' and 'it’s not the end of the world'. But I don’t think you can say that to us anymore. Are we even on your list of priorities? My father always says “You are what you do, not what you say.” Well, what you do makes me cry at night. You grown ups say you love us. I challenge you, please make your actions reflect your words. "

 

"All this is happening before our eyes and yet we act as if we have all the time we want and all the solutions. I’m only a child and I don’t have all the solutions, but I want you to realise, neither do you!

1. You don’t know how to fix the holes in our ozone layer.

2. You don’t know how to bring salmon back up a dead stream.

3. You don’t know how to bring back an animal now extinct.

4. And you can’t bring back forests that once grew where there is now desert.

If you don’t know how to fix it, please stop breaking it!

Here, you may be delegates of your governments, business people, organisers, reporters or politicians – but really you are mothers and fathers, brothers and sisters, aunts and uncles – and all of you are somebody’s child.

I’m only a child yet I know we are all part of a family, five billion strong, in fact, 30 million species strong and we all share the same air, water and soil ... borders and governments will never change that.

I’m only a child yet I know we are all in this together and should act as one single world towards one single goal.

In my anger, I am not blind, and in my fear, I am not afraid to tell the world how I feel."

it's so legit. flip! i now i shall return to stalking the un website. and then watch the game. yay life*

enchantedhappy xoxo

maybe sometime...*

this photo makes me think of barneys bag. [the dinosaur, victoria. apparently it's difficult to know which one i'm referring to. gosh.] -everything you could ever need to make the moment perfect would fit inside. and then it makes me think that if i could have one wish tonight, i would choose something selfish.

i want to finish the episode. -to finish the season. but it's taken me... three hours... to be fine after watching it. so i think i'll watch breakfast at tiffanys instead. and hope we have ice cream in the freezer...

enchantedhappy xoxo

i feel so far from where i've been...*

[the most sunnyhappy outfit]

"The summer's all in bloom

The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone

But I hold on to secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head

I come undone at the things he said"

"It's alright and I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades"
"And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep"

i want these glasses. and for it to be sunny enough to wear them. i don't feel like going to the fanpark tomorrow. -is that silly? right now, im looking for missadachi's mission blog post on oscentral. bc mine needs to be done soon. so far i have found her amazing mission memories and advice post. really excited! time to collect toothbrushes :)

enchantedhappy xoxo

to inspire my dreaming*

i have a good... four hours.. before blackbelt arrives and rings the doorbell which i must answer. tomorrow is the germany game, must be awake.. bedtime is soon*

fun fact of the day: i need like a hundred fillings. shocking! and now (bc of lisa's freak out reaction) frightening. geeez. [no klohe, not gees. shame cousin..]

it still amazes me how effortlessly cool french bloggers and their friends are. i heart blackorchid. [and i'm thinking about investing in an orchid...]

"I loved you

because you see beauty

in the things that are broken

tattered

frayed around the edges

they make you wake

on rays of kissing sun

to your whale heart

all ready to swallow all the sadness

spouting out gold and honey so sweet

and if you get cut

you bleed your flood of glitter

and move along

because

even if you get bruised and broken

you still have room in that whale soul

to creep around

the caves and

sea mountains

and find just a speck

of hope"

-starflowerandindigo

don't you ever forget that.

currently loving: wildfox ads. strong black coffee. nude nailpolish. the return of my mug..well, the reincarnation.. (lisafortuin, stop laughing.we have a great bond, my mug and i). the fact that i can have an actual song as my ringtone. lisa adachi's haircut (it's still longer than mine haha, but dang 29 inches wow). the idea of a new stash of cool tights. adrianna's songs in the new 90210 episodes. the world cup. -highlight of tonight's game? the first closeup of beckham :)

jokes, it was a hectic game. fast-paced. with actual fouls for a change. and gosh, all the goal attempts are not good for my heart. but yes, that beckham moment.. very much appreciated*

oh gosh, it's almost five! -okay goodnight all (i'm pretty sure that's a line from a cold medicine ad...)

enchantedhappy xoxo

he whispers 'te quiero'...*

everytime i watch 10thingsihateaboutyou i think of you, sarahjane. just like everytime i see a cupcake. and use the makeup you brought me from england. and whenever i see burberry. and chanel. and sparklers* i shall be using your vanilla cupcake recipe tomorrow :)

"She believes in all the magic of hopes and dreams, and she’ll fight until it proves true in your life. –Not so that you’ll agree, but to inspire your heart never to give up on its truest wish. Her eyes sing of honesty, and I trust her with everything that I am. Her heart holds my secrets, my fears; and there’s nowhere else I’d have them be."

i've realised: that mxit is way more complicated this time round. HIMYM just keeps getting better. how endearing sheldon's craziness is. how much i've missed twitter. how incredibly beautiful the locket my parents gave me is. that ohmygosh it's three am!!

enchantedhappy xoxo

this night's a perfect shade of...*

..and quite well, i must say.

im listening to 'dark blue' over and over. it makes me happy and i just want to dance and spin around :) tomorrow is the airport.. *sigh* V says i wont be a good mom. and now my daddy is telling me to go to bed bc he has to lock the house when i leave. ah the joys of living not-in-the-house. i shall finish the letters im writing and post them in the morning* yay mail mail mail :) goodnight.

enchnatedhappy xoxo

superficial lines explain it all*

yesterday i went for a lovely walk through town with danna. we sat in the gardens, came into close contact with squirrels and spoke about.. life. about decisions and applications and boys and fashion (duh) and poetry and inspiration :) it was an enriching day for me. and i found photos which remind me of 'the secret garden' which i loved when i was younger. i wonder if i still would today.. i am currently reading a book called 'stories we could tell'. it's quite cool. today, i wore pearls. and lace. leather. leggings. lipstick. and i thought i had made a decision, but i guess i hadn't. and then things got personal. and now i feel drained. *sigh* yesterday feels forever away.

to end, i quote rumi (thanks danna). if. the start and the finish.

"you are that blessed soul who

belongs to the garden of paradise

is it fair to let yourself

fall apart in a shattered house

you are the bird of happiness

in the magic of existence

what a pity when you let

yourself be chained and caged

but if you can break free

from this dark prison named body

soon you will see

you are the sage and the fountain of life"

enchantedhappy xoxo

to find home*

"i'm, a satellite heart
lost in the dark.
im, spun out so far.
you stop
i start
but i'll be true to you"



i have been reading. not as much as i planned. and not the writing i intended. but it's been been interesting. i like the way they're written. as if the author just wrote it all down as it came, scattered, without thinking. and did not look back to edit it. and although i'm sure they did, i like it. i find the characters most intruiging.

"tonight, i am not okay. i am in one of those moods where i don't want to talk about it. but i don't want to be reckless either. just sitting in a quiet room would be perfect. and... i want to wear brogues. with indigo tights. dye my hair three shades darker. paint my nails silver so my fingertips glisten in the light, like a disco ball. i want to dance around like i'm having the time of my life. and then burst into tears. just for a moment. because here, with them, i feel like i'm in a bubble. reality without mine. i try to shut it out, breathe deeply, but it seems to bury deeper; inhaled with the air. and for a moment i am lost. disorientation grips me. but it dissolves almost instantly. and nobody knows of the moment before. and that's the way i want it" i like her best.


may your evening be filled with hope and magic.

enchantedhappy xoxo

take me with you*

i'm in the mood to get away. far away..

"i love the feeling of being anonyomous in a city i've never been before"

the other day we had quite an emotional moment in the car.. realising that both R and D are leaving in january. for super long. to start a new life. with new people. and not us... :( i want to go,too.. i'm going to feel empty without them always near to me... *tear*

only one more real exam and i'm done with learning and school forever. okay not forever. but it's a whole new world after thursday. can't wait :) maybe il take a looooong spontaneous roadtrip. to nowhere in particular. those always turn out well*

listening to cuteiswhatweaimfor.. and wanting to eat marshmellows... hoping the sun will come out again soon..

enchantedhappy xoxo

all of the above*

yes please! very much so. especially option D. especially tonight.. *sigh* im reading three books at the moment: The Tenth Circle (loooove jodi picoult's books) , Love, Stargirl (thanks maryjane, its magical) and Faith Like Potatoes (i met the film's director, and the story's inspirational, so i figured i should read the book before i see the movie..) and i hardly have time to read them.. i get so caught up in reading them but then *bang* i have life to do. (ugh) or i fall asleep. but yay soon i will be free .. im so excited to have more time to read. so many books iv got waiting to finish :)

i want pink hair. and im not sure if im serious or not. but there's something incredibly exciting and intruiging about it. i kinda always wanted a pink bob. (like an Anne Hathaway-long-bob, not like a lil bob..) but aaah haha i wonder if il actually ever do it. maybe for a week*

i just want to live free happy there. that's all. nothing else. right now. forever. that would be so perfect right now...*

enchantedhappy xoxo