i miss nothing, i miss everything*

it's a lovely day filled with sunshine. the kinda day that's perfect for drinks like this.

and yet all im waiting for is evening.  

  i don't know why, but that's all i want right now... evening.

 candles. sweet potato. (@Lee_lah's) linen pants. brie..

and allll of this: 

[my brother says i look creepy when im holding a knife. #probablytrue]

and for you, i proclaim today's song: everytime you lie by demilovato.

happy birthday, daddy.

you're my favourite*

xoxo

as i was leaving, too soon*

nighttime photos are my favourite.

turns out i like jumping in rain puddles.

and burning incense in my bedroom...

aaand i like:

sparkly nailpolish

being friends with victoriasmith

the smell of my new shampoo.

(if youre around me when ive just washed my hair,

i WILL make you smell it.

and you will thank me.

haha #butreally)

 dear telephone wire photos

 i like you very much, too.

more lovely things:

old ladies with long grey hair.

the kind of son-in-law my dad is.

apartment scouting with my dad. #ilovetown

this weekend, get lost in: night time by the xx

and fall in love with the clouds.

xoxo

buckhead, please..*

this photo takes me right back to the catch-your-breath-beautiful autumn mornings i was fortunate enough to experience in atlanta. playing in the park, falling into piles of perfectly fragrant leaves. walking to the schoolbus, through the most incredibly beautiful trees ive ever seen. i loved waking up in the manor at buckhead, i loved eating deliciously unfamiliar cereal, i loved anticipating the cafeteria breakfasts, and holding my dad's hand as we floated through the biting air. is it sad that im literally tearing up just thinking about it, there's nowhere else id rather be rightnow...

she's a good girl..*

many things i missed this morning: summers away at the beach with you. perfect birthdays. best friends who can eat as much cake as i can. not having to explain myself, bc you can see it before i even breathe your name. you being here with me.

 

but as the day progressed, so my world improved.

dinner plans with my inspiration. a completely quotable movie. squishy candy. a beautiful day of sunshine. application forms. bonding with my brother. roads lined with greengreen trees. new glee episodes. catchy lovesongs. rubyred nailpolish. driving through the city at night. today was filled with life's little joys*

my heart is smiling, as i drink my delicious hot rooibos tea and tell you i want you to bake me a cake. bc nothing makes me happy like watching the sun sparkle on the sea* that, and having the most incredible friends in the world :)

songs of the night: every song i have by matthewmole. (go.download.them.)

enchantedhappy xoxo

happybirthday sarahmurphy*

it's eight twenty. lisa is sleeping in my bed. the dogs next door are barking. i'm busy stalking Lord_Voldemort7's tweets.bc theyre hilarious and brilliant. i just finished my tea. aaaand. ohmygosh its eight twenty.

Things i don't understand: What we did before we got a dishwasher. WHAT is up with Nu Metro making me BUY 3D glasses?! Could you not have told me this before I left my 8 other pairs at home. And we allll know your 'glasses aren't included in ticket price' line is a FAKESTORY. No need to lie. How sethcohen is so dang amazing. [WHY.-no. HOW you felt you had to do this at seven am, and then leave. with me feeling like this. it's just rude and you should be ashamed. i am sorry though. truly and completely. tell me how to make this right] Aaaand. I am fully going to be lame and agree with the hype: stepup3D. INSANELY COOL. Also (and more importantly) I'm in love with Moose. More than I was in the "tastes like candycanes at christmaaas" days. WAY more. So backoff. Mine. ("mine mine mine" *just for you chaitea*)

In other news of the day. Allll of you. Yes, even you. Should click on this link now. And follow my friend's blog. Bc apprently she's getting marked on the amount of followers she has. For school. Kay GO. I'm off to watch The OC, and hope Seth can make me feel better... And wonder (but not care) if the "Californiaaaa" will wake Lisa up..

enchantedhappy xoxo

takes my hearts place*

remember these? ahh good times.. stjoseph's memories. currently reading: we wish to inform you that tomorrow will be killed with our families: stories from rwanda by philipgourevitch. and 70 great christians: the story of the christian church by geoffreyhanks. still can't finish perfectmatch by jodipicoult. it's just... so heartbreaking, reading the kid's thoughts. he shouldn't be feeling like that. ever. let alone while he's so young. he's five, for goodness sake. five. oh gosh, i don't think i'll ever finish it..

jessicasmith, just read your 'thankyou elc' post..“once family, always family.” awww. and ohmygoodness i just discovered goodreads. it's he coolest thing! have u got it, miss adachi? i think youd love it! ive been on it for like.. seven hours straight, im so addicted!!! my mom is laughing at me for getting so excited at every new option, "andrea, get a real friend". #gottalovefamily (yes i am bringing twitter into every moment, bc i can) rightnow im: updating my 43things. currently reading: britt's romantic post aaand her amazing list of why it's great to be single. this whole morning i thought it was nextweek monday, and was kinda freaking out. haha, turns out it's only august23, calm down everyone. everything is suddenly so soon* lastnight escalated so quickly. and then i found an sms from you on may tenth. is it lame that that's the only thing that calmed me down? probably. but youre still in my life, and youre still the one i want to run to. so i guess that's a good sign.

so much happened this weekend. it seems all my adventures happen with especially with lisafortuin these days, haha we are so great.  but i guess ill blog about my thoughts and experiences some other time. i just bought cranberryjuice and a cranberryalmond bar. and a magazine i played a part in creating. tonight i will go enjoy those :) and that yummy green tea with jasmine mmmm. i don't feel like thinking or analysing. i just want to: complete the essay i began this morning. paint my nails barbie pink. search for more colleges in hawaii. but im mostly just smiling to myself about the INCREDIBLE people i have in my life. thankyou, amazing friends. you make me so happy, make my heart feel complete. sweet dreams to you all*

enchantedhappy xoxo

to be your anything*

[images via seemeeverywhere/artpixie]

that's how you make my heart feel. like it should twirl around and smile that smile. the smile only you can read, the smile your heart knows*

(nothing makes me smile like a new taylorswift song. and i just got a ton) rightnow im laughing at: monologue song (la la la) from when she was on snl. it's the greatest* mmm daddy's making delicous food. countdown to twoweeksnotice: three hours. countdown to thelakehouse: onehourhour. (not sure if ill be watching it though. my dad just told me it's like meetjoeblack, which broke my heart.) waitingfordinner songs: americangirl. your anything. barnyard song. lucky you. all by (you guessed it) taylorswift. apparently there are russian girls looking for me. um. no thankyou. i miss: gilmoregirls. blowpen artwork. the night we all stayed up downloading the chords to songs we loved to sing. you on guitar. and the 6am roadtrip that followed. mmmm freshcoriander. peppadew and feta. wonderful pesto. freshlybaked pitabread. exciting flavours exciting colours. I LOVE FOOD*

enchantedhappy xoxo

my heart beat. can you hear my*

today is my last official day at the opsmile office.

it's heartbreaking. but they'll always be my family. and ill always be involved. and we'll still have our very own romantic adventures*

(not usually a tavi-stalker. but when she's wearing miumiu, how could i resist*)

today's romantic adventure comprised of: used bookstores. scary men on drugs. a broken atm point. danna's one moment of fear in this country. boerewors rolls. one thousand magazines. carrying one thousand magazines up to the 7th floor. much tape. supercool nailpolish. and beautiful baby taru*

still: stalking herecomesthesun. have newnew running through my head. obsessively drinking orangejuice. mmm orangejuice :) *counting down the days til august tenth. newly inlove with tygerberg campus and the amazing adventure victoria -no, not you- has planned for the days to follow)* and this weekend i will see people. in public. yay!

almost hometime.. *sigh*

but hello weekend!

enchantedhappy xoxo

the lies you spun like a sorceror*

she is wise beyond her years. insightful. creative. opinionated. free-spirited. twelve.

she has tea parties, true to elizabethan rituals. reads history books. teaches herself foreign languages. and this week, she can't go to bed before she watches her favourite scenes from 'alexander' (the specific edition she approves of).

my cousin is staying with me tonight. theyr all covering up a lie that (having watched enough tv in my life) i know will ruin her, even if it's in the long run. or maybe i'm thinking of myself. always looking for an excuse, for justification. perhaps she is stronger. perhaps she is able to put things into perspective and to see the pure motive behind their actions. either way, i'm against this.

we spent tonight googleimage-stalking horses, for her art project. i wouldve loved to go to her school. 

but flip, im so glad im done. went to my old highschool the other day (oh, the things i do for opsmile.. lol) and left more furious than ive been in a while. furious. and frustrated. so glad i got out. and i felt pity for those caught up in their moment of authority. spiralling through this system as though it's their realm to rule, without consequence. without consideration for the lives theyre meant to be shaping.-but hey, education systems that prepare you for life, that's only theoretical. why would one think that's actually how it plays out in real life. (yes, it is bitterness that you sense)

before, i loved school. to loser-ish degrees. but highschool was painful. i made the most incredible friends, and for them i will be forever grateful. cried my heart out as we sang goodbye. but i cried for them. i cried for the memories and the relationships. and i cried tears of intense relief. i cried thankful tears and sighed 'finally' sighs. i pray that she will never have a moment like that. that these last few years of the safety net (or the barrier) of school will be years of enlightenment. of inspiration. fulfillment and joy.

and i pray that tonight we will both dream sweetly*

enchantedhappy xoxo

..of all my daddys, you're my favourite*

[eastersunday at rhodesmemorial]

[valentinesday ontop of tablemountain]

"he loves mommy so much. it's the kind of love that can easily be taken for granted. but it's the deepest, most beautiful kind. it helps me see the kind of love that's possible. and it makes me never want to settle for anything less."

everything you are is love. thank you.

happy fathers day*

enchantedhappy xoxo

glitter in the air*

today, the weather is perfect. victoria blogged. danna brought me the uk vogue. and i began to read the complete and unabridged edition of 'a little princess' yet again. it's pretty much my favourite book in the whole wide world. it's wonderful. sara crewe, wise beyond her years, has the imagination, loving father and strength of character i wish all girls had*

enchantedhappy xoxo

but it's so yummy..*

i was google-ing poems for my brother (inspiration for his descriptive essay.. thinking outv the box vibes lol) and i came across some lovely friendship ones. and i found these cute photos of my wonderful friends. so hello :)

look, your hair colour looks similar!

hahaha ur toe is just randomly there. uhm freaky.

i love you guys :) that's all. and thank you. as cheesy as it is. you guys are the greatest*

bar one chocolate sauce forever. (except i promise i won't pour it into other people's bowls again haha *awkward* even if it is life-changing sauce)

enchantedhappy xoxo

faithful friend*

went for a lovely family lunch today. met su ji. she is wonderful and sweet and im going to tutor her on saturdays now :) also, today i learnt the impact one person can have on others. aunty faith has been the most wonderful friend. a friend who, true to her name, has been unbelievably faithful over the many many (like fifty..) years of friendship with my ma. and she's been a light to my entire family. in ways i cannot even begin to explain, but which were summed up so beautifully this afternoon. and to quote my dad and su ji, "i want a friend like you" .. the power of friendship. true, honest friendship. overflowing with love. it's incredible. wow*

oh these photos were taken in their garden today. theyr kinda cropped randomly bc i made them big, but that's too bad. anyway, i had a good day. it was sunny :) and i got a new bracelet which i got to wear* also, many many sweets were eaten. yay leftover party* more to come about the sweetest sixteenth later!

enchantedhappy xoxo

that ain't no etch-a-sketch*

she is wierd. and screams a lot. but she's gorgeous and fun. and i love her. not just bc we're related.

cousin, i hope ur having the most amazing time in london :)

i'm listening to Teddy just for you. he needs to bring out a new cd so we can obsess over it. wait, i think he may have.. there are new singles, oh man oh man, i hope there's a new album! look out for it kay* i miss u i miss u i miss u

"This is one doodle that can't be un-did, Homeskillet"

enchantedhappy xoxo