the battle's in your hands now*

[i would like to be her tonight.]

all im thinking is:

"omg im so bad at math. #butreally

 thank you God for giving me atleast one skill in my love for language.

 please, SAT, please be kind to me. you could make my dreams come true."

i wish: i could sit somewhere with hundreds of lanterns

 in a princess dress, drinking white hot chocolate.

but mostly, my heart whispers "please come back, james. please"

happy tuesday, i guess.

xoxo

and i will make you sound like..*

"well, now i don't have a chance with any of the girls in this room.."

oh, my boy..

if only you knew

if only you tried

if only she had told me

that you looked at me like that

my restless heart would

stop for a second

and then beat for you always.

if only her first reaction was different

if only she didn't catch your eye

youd see through her laugh, her dance

and hate me for not showing you

the truth before it broke you

if only i could be

embracing fall with missadachi

with the boy who chose his girlfriend over our friendship

rushing with jessicasmith

exploring restaurants in town

listening to this wonderful cd

-without wanting to share it all with you

if only you saw the way your eyes shine

the way your heart glows

and my world reflects it all back to you

"pick me

choose me

love me"

for now i will attempt to sleep

and not dream of ending friendships. again.

tomorrow is one of lastminutes. birthdays. and a night with sarahjane <3

enchantedhappy xoxo

charles is driving; he he is driving*

[refraining from mentioning the names of these amazing models just for you, jessicasmith]

there's nothing i want more rightnow than to be able to attend FNO this year. honestly. im secretly (well, not so secretly anymore..) hoping that september tenth will be the day i finally master the art of teleportation. so that my heart and newyorkcity can once again be reunited in the perfect event for us. that, and not having to wash my hair rightnow.. oh and this unicorn perfume. just sayin.

enchantedhappy xoxo

all of the above*

yes please! very much so. especially option D. especially tonight.. *sigh* im reading three books at the moment: The Tenth Circle (loooove jodi picoult's books) , Love, Stargirl (thanks maryjane, its magical) and Faith Like Potatoes (i met the film's director, and the story's inspirational, so i figured i should read the book before i see the movie..) and i hardly have time to read them.. i get so caught up in reading them but then *bang* i have life to do. (ugh) or i fall asleep. but yay soon i will be free .. im so excited to have more time to read. so many books iv got waiting to finish :)

i want pink hair. and im not sure if im serious or not. but there's something incredibly exciting and intruiging about it. i kinda always wanted a pink bob. (like an Anne Hathaway-long-bob, not like a lil bob..) but aaah haha i wonder if il actually ever do it. maybe for a week*

i just want to live free happy there. that's all. nothing else. right now. forever. that would be so perfect right now...*

enchantedhappy xoxo

ballerina dreams*

all i ever wanted to be was a ballerina. more than most little girls do. and i was on my way to doing so. royal ballet academy on the horizon.. and then things with my world didnt quite turn out as planned. and my parentals costed the team. *cue violins.. hahaha* so now i am not a ballerina. and i dont know what i want to be.

i searched for ballerina images and these are some of the ones i enjoy xoxo